April 2018 Newsletter

So here I am.. Consuela… finally up for the Summer. This wakening up and going back to sleep just isn’t working for me any longer. It is still below ZERO some nights and much of America is snowed under and ungodly cold. I am in Tumwater, WA and no complains. Almost right away I made a new friend, we are both in a situation where we have to watch ourselves because Humans find us dangerous, want to relocate us and some even call for our death.

Humans find us dangerous

March was like the melting ice that worked it’s self downstream. Rugged, sharp cornered. at times swift and stuck in debries of Uglies other times.

“Hay Ms Coug how you you think you can just hang out with me? You do realize we are not the same species.”

“I know but you look about as worn out as I am. No fight here so we may as well be friends, lay here for a while having a good conversation and compare thoughts as to what is happening to Planet Earth. Things are so different than what I have observed in previous years. While you were still sleeping I hid under Lilian’s house and could hear her loud and clear at night when she talked on one of her devises. Storks are mainly native to Africa, Asia and Europe. Stork can also be found in Australia. A new species is present between Florida and Argentina, so …if I heard it right… Lilian and a young Lady were accompanied by a Stork for about 8 blocks in Olympia, WA it was a big thing. It sounded rather odd since she had never seen one in the 52 years of living in the town and never gave it too much thought. Since it was so unusual she pulled out her book: Animal Speak by Ted Andrews and looked up the meaning. According to him Stork is a symbol in CHINA. Stork has no real means of communication. Stork is a close relative to humans and according to some Fairytales when wounded cries human tears. When Stork dances he has connections to other dimensions, can attain a trance-like state and act as a Shapeshifter. It also indicated we have to get back to some of our old ways to reconnect reality. The Stork traveled with Lilian and her young friend rather than dance but it was so thought provoking and called for closer examination. Eventually the Lady on the other end of the Telefon and my hostess thought it had something to do with the present state of political situations.”

“HMM. I guess there are two realities to the country and the way people look at things…. in fact Europe and others are looking at things from a third perspective. Bet Mr McKrekor knows something about that. Where is he anyway have not seen him since I woke up THIS time.”

“He was a bit concerned when I came along, after all I belong in the Cat Family. We reached a compromise and decided to help one another since we all occupy the same little strip of dirt. When Lilian’s landlord finds out we are here we will have to stick together. Poor woman will be in big trouble. With her international family in the mids of several federal flags flying just imagine what will happen when they discover we are also residence of #406. Maybe there is a Porn Queen close by we can get her start a distraction. It seems to work for the President should work for us also. There comes McKrekor, finally…. Where you been ? Consuela and I was worried about you. We know you was NOT helping your wife SWEETY with her Spring chores. Don’t leave her too long, its a dangerous world at the moment.”

“Well look at you two laying around in the early sunshine, someone had to secure the news. Lilian is flipping in and out of time, she can’t help. Last week she ran errands which should have taken 4 hours. She was back home in two. A few days later her travels should have taken 2 hours and it took 5. ON A STRAIGHT LINE with 2 Bathroom stops I must add. Do to the Opium Crisis she had been giving a drug-test by her doctor. When it came back it was “DIRTY”. Needless to say it caused quiet a commotion since she refuses to take most of the meds Dr try to give her and is allergic to almost everything. Will keep you posted. She is in the process to re-examine the results and file a complaint against the laboratory. Guess her and I are both Scouts and return with arrows on our back so you two can lay here and do nothing… “

“I slept most of the winter like I am suppose to, in case you forgot I am a bear and also I am the BIGGEST in this fold of friends so give me no grief I can sit on you and you are history.”

“I am swift and can scratch your eyes out….but wait that would make us as turbulent and hateful as humans so I suggest we let Mr McKrekor tell us what all he found out while he was surveying the world. Give it to us straight, no sugar coding, not even honey coding. Look at Consuela, she is thinking Sweets….”

Look at Consuela

“Planes and Choppers keep falling out of the sky.

Trains keep derailing.

Bridges are collapsing.

The great Steven Hawkins died, what a loss.

An apocalypse (Ancient Greek: ἀποκάλυψις apokálypsis, from ἀπό and καλύπτω, literally meaning “an uncovering”) is a disclosure of knowledge or revelation.
The investigation into the “Russian Probe” is still ongoing Many Subpoenas have been issued. More Top Rank Officials have been FIRED and even I with my Bird Brain wonders who is running the Government. Guess we are sitting Ducks…LOl… Ducks more Birdbrains…get it?

book cover for Lilian's book for 2016

This was the book cover for Lilian’s book for 2016. It was published BEFORE the election and we know how that turned out.

In March someone wrote her a letter and asked how she can create book covers which are prophetic. She had not thought about it that way because she writes her Newsletters based on the happenings of the prior month and then attempts to come up with a catching title so it created interest even further down the years after she has left this plane and she hopes to record a bit of history which will be lost due to the BIG EVENTS on Planet Earth.

The book cover for 2017 looked like this:

and yes that would be me sitting on the cloth line amongst the shoes.

So look what happened at the White House Lawn as a result of the School Shooting in Parkland. FL. Still trying to figure out how they accomplished this task of depositing 4000 pairs of shoes representing the people who were killed over a period of time.

TOPSHOT - The lawn outside the US Capitol is covered with 7,000 pairs of empty shoes to memorialize the 7,000 children killed by gun violence since the Sandy Hook school shooting, in a display organized by the global advocacy group Avaaz, in Washington, DC, March 13, 2018. / AFP PHOTO / SAUL LOEB (Photo credit should read SAUL LOEB/AFP/Getty Images)
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Without her asking Andreas Losert created the book Cover for the book for 2018.

BEARLY...... by the skin of our teeth

Lilian gave it the title….BEARLY…… by the skin of our teeth

MAKES ONE THINK! We called it Blindganger, (DUD) meaning we found them as children after the war and reported them since they did not go off. One was found as recent as THIS year 2018 in Nurnberg Germany. It was deactivated so no one was hurt.

March was Woman’s Month. Many marches took place to bring attention to Female issues. Equal pay, sexual harassment, woman accomplishments and woman’s rights.

March was Woman's Month
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Women’s March

We stand together in solidarity with our partners and children for the protection of our rights, our safety, our health, and our families – recognizing that our vibrant and diverse communities are the strength of our country.
Our Mission

On March 14th Thousents of CHILDREN walked out of school around the country to draw attention to yet another school shooting and sent a message to our leaders because they have the right to be safe in school.

yet another school shooting

Ten days later, March 24 the kids marched again….. with support of their parents and teachers. This time it was world wide. All they are asking for is peace of mind while in school so they can learn. For Assault weapons to be banned to have a more sufficient way to register guns for those who wish to own them.

kids marched again
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And then there was a protest in Sacramento’CA. An unarmed man was shot 20 times, 8 bullets hit and killed him. People were REALLY upset about that.

protest in Sacramento
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President was busy playing golf, dismantling every good thing which was left, tried out- smarting the courts and the Constitution. It was a busy month.

“ So, Mr McKrekor…. don’t tell me you flew to all those places to take notes and Pictures.”

“No, of course not. I watched it through the window at Lilian’s. You could have done the same, but you would have had to sit up at least…. can;t do anything laying around. OH OH my Lady is chirping at me in a tone that I had better listen to. One two things….
Omar had a stroke, he will be OK and Kanashibushan had surgery, she OUTLIVED her Pacemaker!

That’s it folks

Love and Light

Ms Coug

President has suggested instead of food stamps he will issue food boxes to low income families. Here is a video of someone opening the box. PLEASE BE ADVISED very foul language.


The predictions Lilian made in October 2016 are playing out if you have not seen them please judge for yourself.

March 2018 Newsletter

Consuela here, is that you Mr McKrekor? I can’t see you but I can tell you are roaming around me again. People sure think our friendship is an odd one, but so be it.

is that you Mr McKrekor

I just started waking up and exploring my surroundings when i ran into this crazy little fella. He said he was a ground-hog and was expected to predict the weather. I asked him if he knew you and he wasn’t sure, he said he had, however, encountered some of your relatives earlier in the year and inquired if it was safe to try and reside in the same area as last year. They thought the world was not so safe any longer for man or beast and he would have to make his own decision about that. Since everything got so over regulated we can only be responsible for our own choices unless we want to be associated with beings and species somewhat savory and trapped in their own dilemmas. They called it the “way of the present world.”


So Ground-Hog saw his shadow and just like they said it started snowing. Not a little, I mean it snowed so much Lilian’s car disappeared. They said it also snowed in ROME and the Maldives, imagine that!”

So good to see you Consuela, was not sure how long you was napping. I have been busy “spying” on the world of the Humans. Pretty crazy stuff going on. Half of the United States is under water. Climate is changing weather they believe it or not. Nothing surprises me at the moment. Lilian had the door open for a few hours the other day, I flew onto the porch, sat on the door and listened to her talking to her niece in Europe and I could not comprehend what she was telling her. I am used to her accent so I am sure I understood the words but the meaning is beyond my comprehension.

South Afrika has a new leader. He plans on taking back some of the land taken from the Natives.

45 ( President Trump) un-did the Disability Act.

45 ( President Trump) wants to send boxes of food to the poor because he wants to limit Food Stamps to $90 and subsidize the rest this way.

13 Russians were indited in reference to the RUSSIA VOTING SCANDAL.

Iowa granted gun permits to the blind, according to USA Today, a reputable newspaper.

Net and telephone service is having real challenges. It makes one wonder what what we do IF one day it no longer worked. Young people are totally lost without their communication capabilities. Even some of the older people have gotten used to the new way of life and would really have to search their memory to reconstruct the way they used to function.

Why are you so quite Consuela, I am just telling it the way I heard it. And THAT is only the small stuff.”

“ You mean to tell me there is more?”

“Oh yes! 17 young students were gunned down at a High School in Parkland Florida by a young mentally disturbed man on February 14, Valentines Day.

enough of the killing
Picture by Mark Wallheiser / AP

As a result the young people of America said enough of the killing and took to the streets. They are demanding gun laws are to be changed and some of them decided to run for Office and plan on taking the rein to modernize their country a bit by voting outdated politicians out of office. If I remember right Lilian talked about that in her 2018 predictions. Not the shooting, the fact that it is time for the young people to take charge of their country and make a new future for themselves.
Another thing she mentioned was train derailments, trouble with planes and the mail. As it turns out train accidents and mechanical problems with planes are an almost weekly occurrence AND a Mail truck was attacked and a mailman shot on a highway.

The White House announced :

“So today, I’m keeping another promise. I just signed, prior to walking in, an order directing Secretary Mattis… to reexamine our military detention policy and to keep open the detention facilities in Guantanamo Bay.”

So the shame of a place of torture remains

“ Maybe I just get back into my hibernating state and wait till the world has recovered!”

“ No.no there were good things also. Just wait!”

“ I almost regret asking how things were going in the Human World and if I missed something…. so go ahead cheer me up or I will hide in my burrow.”

celestrial going-on 01
celestrial going-on 02

The TV Station shared a live feed of the big event of the celestrial going-on’s in February
Have you ever seen a weather map?”

“What kind of silly question is that? I am a Bear in case you forgot, what would I do with a weather map? But let me see what it looks like.

weather map

Too bad it does not show the whole globe, but if you think about it the map shows a lot more than just Lilian’s back yard, my world for the moment.”

“Just think how big the world looks to me, a little bird. I am not the smallest bird in the Kingdom,yet, I see everything from above. BTW you are a pretty good size also towering over small critters much closer to the dirt. The other day Lilian had an appointment in the Neighborhood she built her first house in. In 1967. I wanted to come along because I have not left my neighborhood for quiet a while. I hopped into the back seat….. you would not be able to do that Consuela, you are just too big….. anyway and off we went. As we started to come close to Hawks Prairie Lilian left out a yelp. When she got there it was a Prairie with snakes and other critters, NOW the neighborhood is home to Office Max, Costco,Home Depot, Walmart, a Casino and every commercial establishment a big City needs for the inhabitants to function and “safe money” in modern society.


The place she went to was a large building and the front Lobby displayed a huge photo of a woman. Lilian did not know her name, no-one else did for that matter, the woman in the picture was an Icon of Olympia, a woman who was always seen around. She smiled at everyone she encountered and always wore a hat. It brought back such memories for my friend and again she had a good day.

Icon of Olympia

Not familiar with the area any longer Lilian got lost as when she made her U-turn to get back to the main highway she spotted a Grocery Outlet. She decided to go inside to see if she could find some Naval Oranges and some Birdseed for me when she spotted a shopper. Being who she is she stopped the man and asked if he knew what month it was. He said he did, February 28th 2018. And yes, in case you are wondering he allowed her to take a picture of himself and the Missus/Helper.

himself and the Missus

Lilian lost his Santa Card so she is unable to recall their name and profusely apologizes.”
“ I hope to accompany her some times in her adventures, Mr McKrekor put on your trixter hat and tell me how I can do that.”

“You too big, just think…. Lilian with a bear in tow… that would panic our Human neighbors they are scared of creatures like you. On the other hand you would have been welcomed at last weekend’s Pow Wow Lilian went to. Bears are very honored amoungst the Indigenous Population. Every February Lilian attends the local festivities, She was very upset when she was only able to attend 1 day, because she aggravated her back and was able to walk the next day, in fact when she returned home she practically fell out of the car because her legs quit working in an orderly fashion.

Pow Wowing

Even though everyone’s mindset was that of a festive nature people talked about the fact that the country is in trouble… CHAOS is a better word…. and the stock market had dropped 1500 points in1 day.”

“ At least Lilian has a cat to snuggle up to when she gets discouraged, maybe that makes up for the lack of sunshine.”

“ Not any more, her Kitty has expired and our friend has decided against having anymore animal companions.”

“ Well, my friend I am going to hide a few more days, still wish I could come along with the two of you and see the things you tell me about. I lost a lot of my bodyweight while hybranating, but you right I am still to big. Wonder what it would take for me to squeese through the narrow door. I see you soon and keep watch for me so I know what transpires in my neighborhood.”

“ I will Consuela, rest well and be assured Lilian solved her pet problem. She was aiming for a Bear but this is what she ended up with.”

aiming for a Bear

Love and Light


Much talk is about race these days, so here is some of the most honest talk about it.

Joyner Lucas – I’m Not Racist


February 2018 Newsletter

Michael Lillie Bear
Created by Michael Lillie

It got a bit wet in my slumber place. I thought I was in a deep sleep but soon realized that Mother Nature, thanks to my Human Co-inhibitors of the Planet, truly suffers from Climate Change. So I decided to move around a bit, poked my head out of the burrow I had dug for myself and saw a familiar creature. MY, it is Mr McKrekor, Lilian’s friend who I met last year. He was a bit startled to see me so early in the year, guess he was wondering where my young one was, except I was a bit too young this time around and have to wait till next Winter to become a Mother.

Michael Lillie crow bear
Created by Michael Lillie

“Just looking around for a minute and try to see if the world is still there, it was so turbulent when I decided to take my Winter position.”

“ Turbulent, you can say that again, if you needed peace and quiet so close to Lilian’s house is the wrong place to hibernate. She religiously watches all the news channels, compares news stories and spend much time on the phone so she is able to fulfill her promise to keep her friends informed enough to hold down a water-cooler conversation, she calls it. Lately she does look a bit stressed I think she is really concerned about the status of the Country. USA has been her home for the last 52 years and her knowledge of history is pretty broad, she tries telling it to her grand-kids but it is hard to understand without a point of reference.”

“ So tell me about the last few weeks, in a way I always think I miss something while sleeping, Sometimes nothing changes but I am assuming that is not the case at the moment.”

“ I have been busy with the wife and our most unusual son, we hatched a Kukuck you know and it is such a responsibility to raise a mixed race bird, The things we have to watch out for and the discrimination we have to put up with. Guess I can feel for our human neighbors, it’s so messed up, so messed up.”

“ Explain please Mr McKrekor.’

“ Our home has not been quiet the same since the new administration came in, everything is so hostile. That of course spilled over into the animal world and even the plant life, a new danger at every corner. Some humans are Sensitives, they feel everything around them. They pick up peoples illnesses, pain, anxieties and moods. Some are very sensitive to Earthquakes, Vulcanos, High Tides and anything out of the ordinary. They are having a very hard time functioning and now there is also a celestial event some of them are dealing with.

A cosmic event not seen in 36 years — a rare “super blood blue moon” — may be glimpsed January 31 in parts of western North America, Asia, the Middle East, Russia and Australia.

super blood blue moon
Some say we are running dual realities, which brings me to a bit of a mystery Lilian is trying to figure out.

Her Predictions 2018 Show has 38901 hits on YouTube. There were several hundred comments, almost all positive. A few from people who make it a habit to criticize everything and that is OK. And there was THIS:

Agent Grey 2 weeks ago

We are not mere observations; we are consciousnesses just like you. Our existence is a reality, but the majority of you do not perceive it yet because we remain invisible to your senses and instruments most of the time. Lilian you have been abducted more than once. We must take you again soon. Your information is vital. Soon.

Agent Grey 1 day ago

We are a parallel reality version of you, in a different time-line that’s similar to yours and we developed down a different path. Do not worry for we know your thoughts, we are always watching, always listening. You are I and I am you. Your information is vital, your information will be taken. Your day is coming soon for abduction. You will return.

I was sitting on the woodpile when Lilian read it. She has been answering the almost 300 people who left a comment but when she got to this the page did not exist. She called someone who specializes in strange websites….. what made her think it was genuine was the fact that her name was spelled correctly. Almost everyone mutilates her name. The friend was unable to locate the URL. She then asked James Clarkson a fellow UFO Investigator and ex Police Detective. He was unable to get to the bottom of it. Finally on 1.28. 2018 she asked someone who REALLY knows about things like that and he thought someone created an account, posted and then deleted the account. That may be true but it reminded Lilian of other instances when such strange things happened and she got messages in very unusual ways, some electronic.”

“OH OH this is a bit wild for me how am I suppose to get back to sleep after that?”

“ Come on, look how big you are and I am but a meager little crow and I am not concerned. If you want to hang around Lilian you might as well get used to unusual things, she is after all the Person Of High Strangeness. Pretty soon I have to get back to the Missus so let me bring you up to speed.”

“ So where did you think it came from?”

“ I don’t know, some people just have a connection the the Universe and I cannot explain that.”

“ OK give me the highlights to the month I slept through so I can get back to sleep.”

” Floods in France.

US Government was shut down because the President held the DREAMERS, children brought to America by their parents illegally, hostage. He wants to build a wall between the US and Mexico. He demanded Mexico pays for the wall, they declined so he attached EVERYTHING he could think of to the budget and held the DREAMERS hostage in exchange for the wall. The fight is ongoing, Government has reopened and the outcome will be decided in 10 days.

There is a flu epidemic and many people died, mostly children and elderly.

Weather in January was ungodly around the world, Poles are melting and the rest of the world is freezing in a very unusual way.

45 (President) declared war on the Press and not even slowing down with his wild accusations while visiting Europe. He put a 30% Tariff on Solar Panels and imported refrigerators and it is said that he spent 24 million on a new refrigerator in AIRFORCE 1. I do hope that is the only Fake News, as he calls it. Imagine how many people he could feed with 24 million Dollars.
Jobs are being moved and outsourced, Lilian’s daughter lost her job after 13 years, it went overseas.

A Medior came to Earth, here are the details:

Medior came to Earth

In this late Tuesday, Jan. 16, 2018, image made from dash-cam video, a brightly lit object falls from the sky above a highway in the southern Michigan skyline. (Zack Lawler/WWMT via AP)(Zack Lawler)

North and South Korea have decided to join forces at the Olympics in South Korea much as it was in 2006 and heard it said 45 (President) was not happy about it.

North and South Korean athletes marched together during the opening ceremony of the 2006 Winter Olympics in Turin, Italy. Credit Amy

North and South Korean athletes marched together
Sancetta/Associated Press

The Doctor in charge of the American Olympic Team who molested in access of 150 young Athletes over a 20-year period was convicted and sentenced to 175 years in prison.

The women March of 2018 was impressive,
beginning of 2018 Women’s March in NYC
Aerial footage shows thousands of women gathered for the second Woman’s March in New York City. The footage shows protesters at the start of the march. Marches were planned world wide.
In New York City, for example, it’s estimated that more than 200,000 protestors marched this year — about half the number of people in 2017. According to local news stations, there were approximately 50,000 protestors in San Francisco, 500,000 in Los Angeles, more than 40,000 in Oakland, tens of thousands in Seattle, and more than 10,000 in Washington, D.C.

Someone invented Airbags for hips so when people fall they won’t break the bones.

All caught up Consuela, I have to leave you now, my family is crowing for me and I don’t want any trouble.”

“ I thank you my friend, the world is a mess, I guess I can do without the news for a few more weeks. I saw flocks of birds traveling North and some of the Rhododendron are trying to bloom in the Great North West, even at that I am not ready to come out of my burrow, please keep an eye on our friend in case she really does get abducted. Maybe they fix her while she is gone, she went to the new Doctor to get her medicine refilled, while there she requested DR listen to her lungs. Dr said rule has it to only discuss two things to make and appointment and attempt another 100 mile round trip. Not sure in which language she told HIM where to go.”

Love and Light

The Russian Dossier was relieced, here is a copy

This is a video of the Meteor
Aliashraf Purgafari
Published on Jan 17, 2018

I make animation for my news video. This news about: meteor that you can saw sky of Michigan when Jan 16 2018

This is the woman March in Seattle from KOMO NEWS

January 2018 Newsletter

bear Consuela

Who ever names a bear Consuela… you guessed it. Lilian. I had only stumbled out of my resting spot momentarily when I heard a lot of commotion and barking of dogs. Big dogs I assumed. Lilian swooshed them away, at that time she had not seen me. When she did she let out a frightening welp and I let her know I was not there to harm her. Somehow she understood me and with that our friendship began. She is a strange Human and insists Bear is one of her power animals in her totem. I am glad this way I can move about freely.

I am not resting so well these days, being pregnant is not my cup of tea, 180-270 days before giving birth and in true bear fashion Dad left as soon as he thought he had mastered his task of impregneting me and I fetch for myself. I notices how many human children are also without their fathers, except they do not fare that well.

Guess I should explain how I moved into Lilian’s yard accidently. My intent was to head for the near-by Mima Mounds except I get tired or let truth be told…lazy. Normally Brown Bears dig dens for winter hibernation, often holding up in a suitable hillside. Females, or she-bears, den while pregnant and give birth during this winter rest, usually to a pair of cubs. Well after I made it as far as the wooded neighborhood at Lilian’s I decited to take a nap and there I stayed till she spotted me, friended me and said I could hang out, providing I do not scare the neighbors. In my slumber,well half slumber, I listened to some of the conversations Lilian has on the phone and guess I can be a taddle tell and repead it. She said nothing about me not telling, maybe she is unaware of my snooping… don’t fret she will. She will.

The book Mr McKrekor was finished in time for people to send it as gifts for the holiday. The Introduction was late but somehow it found it’s way into the book by way of the Editor. Some had not seen it so I will share it with you.

mr. mckrekor

The weather here in beautiful Southern Florida is a distraction as is my search for housing, a job and attending to my elderly parents. My deepest and sincere apologies for sending this off so late.

My thoughts on Lilian’s recent production cannot be separated from, nor can it occur without my recalling my first encounter(s) with Lilian. She arrived at my office on 4th Avenue in Olympia as I imagined her, although in truth I had no idea who she was nor did I know that she even existed. I knew her essence and spirit through her daughter, Michelle. Michelle like her mother is a kind, wise, fierce and gentle woman for whom family, children and legacy are sacred. I was a newly minted lawyer working to establish myself in practice and Michelle chose me (an honor) to protect and defend what was most valuable to her. The universe conspired to give Michelle the outcome she and her family needed. I’m not sure if Lilian’s visit was before, during or after my work and partnership with Michelle.

In retrospect, I see that I was called to this family and to Michelle and Lilian. Called by whom? I would venture to say by Lilian, whose matter of fact appearance at my office left me bewildered. I felt off balance during our meeting. I remember she came with a German gentleman, whose name I can no longer recall. She introduced me to him, as though she and I had had a long and familiar relationship—but we had not. I had just met Lilian, I thought. Lilian was and is the manifestation of my own family consciousness a living embodiment of the Santeras, Orishas and Espiritistas who were and are my aunts, cousins, mother and a few brothers. She was family in a way that I could not then comprehend but I accepted. So, when Lilian the mother of all, the sister of all, the one who sees and know came to me, I welcomed her. Wary though I was, I let my guard down and I listened. Lilian’s world, her stories, her history were a fusion of myth, legend and transformative truth.

I do not pretend to know who Lilian is, but I can tell you that for me the not knowing is one the beautiful parts of her essence. How can you know everything? How can you know yourself unless you are fully enlightened? How do you fully know another? How can you love that which you cannot fully comprehend, hold or embrace? I don’t know the answers to these questions, but I do know and understand instinct. Instinct is that self- trust, a gut level trust in our response and reaction to the universe and its inhabitants. In its purest form, instinct cares not about race, class, gender, politics or religion. It is not based on bias or pre-judgment. It is the knowledge that for good or ill what we sense and like, love, fear or loathe is grounded in ancient and primordial truth. So, trust, instinct and respect are what brought Lilian into my life.

After years of traveling in the same orbit and at times in parallel universes, I reach back and forward to Lilian. This is as it should be, because Lilian traverses both of these realms, looking, learning, interpreting and trusting—her instincts.

Reading Lilian’s newsletters, watching her shows and following her predictions are a constant re-introduction to a singular person and a singular world view. Ancient magic, cosmic knowledge, earthly grounding is present in all she touches. I am honored to have had this opportunity to write this introduction. To all who are new to this phenomenon, welcome and to those who have traveled with Lilian, buckle up.
Lina Beckford,. Riviera Beach, FL December 12,

Predictions show for 2018 had 29,409 views and 218 comments as of the last day of December 2017. Here are a few:

Ron Haskell–ELE of AIR 3 weeks ago

In the News there was an Article Written that Trump cut portions of Bear Ear Preserve, and another Landmark, “The Great Staircase”, releasing that Land for Development! ….Very interesting that your Bear earring keeps falling off, it has been cut-off! :)

Ron Haskell–ELE of AIR 3 weeks ago

Say that out loud, “Fire-Walker”, then listen to what it says, “Hiawatha”! Don’t you see? The Man-Child has been Realized through Real-eyes! Through Two with Nessa’s of GOD! …Sweet! “Hiawatha”, “Fire-Walka”, “Hiawatha”…can manipulate to guide Him to Lead the People! It is the Ritual of Anointing Him!

willow bell 1 month ago

Why do you say that about President Trump? what’s going to happen to him? He’s got to do a lot of cleaning up after Mr Obama, or Mr genocide man as I call him but you’ve had Republican presidents before, why all the fuss about him? To me its mass hysteria. I don’t remember hearing it about the late President Reagan, who offered you all an easy buck and you all went for it as people went for the late Mrs Thatcher here. Neither I don’t remember hearing people complain about any of those democrats, e.g. the late President John Kennedy, who have messed America up since the mid 1960s. You guys seemed to love his disgusting brother Edward Kennedy who killed his mistress. President Carter was the only vaguely good one and of course you doidn’t like him. As a whole you don’t have any concept of right and wrong, just like your motherland Britain (where I’m from)

Ashley Kornelius replied:

“My husband and all his friends ARE military and think he’s a disaster waiting to happen. They DO NOT support him.”

President Trump decited to make Jerusalem the Capitol of Israel and with that ignited much violence in that region and others. He managed to anger everyone to the point an Emergency Meeting of the United Nations had to be called and it was voted AGAINST him. How can ONE MAN upset the whole world in such a small amount of time…. He would not be able to do this in the Animal Kingdom, there are rules to play by.

Major Demonstrations to call for his Impeachment are scheduled for January 20th and a Women march for the next day. Much like in Bear Society Human Females just about have to take compleate control of affairs or the species will not survive.

A train derailed about 20 Miles from Lilian’s house, the Video is on the end of the show. 3 people were killed, it was down-grated from 6 and many were hurt, Turned out the virgin ride of some new tracks and the train speeded at 80-MPH instead of 30-MPH.

train derailed
train derailed map

Children are kicked off Health Care, Energy Assistance and food for old and disabled were canceled, People in charge of the Aids Project in the Government were let go, Puerto Rico will be without power until at least May and it’s citizens are treated like a foreigner.

A Local Hospital wrote Lilian a personal letter asking for donations to treat the sick.

letter asking for donations to treat the sick

Both Lilian and a friend of hers in Florida are experiencing major Landlord problems, she promised to tell you about it next month.

The atmosphere in the country is such that people can discriminate and take liberties unheard of just 12 month ago and so many people are in distress…

Christians celebrated Christmas, stores were hellish to maneuver guess that is a way to have fun.

The 7 days of Kwanzaa was a time of reflection, self-determination and caring for one another.

CNN was running the series The 90’s over the weekend, it’s amazing just how fast we forget how we got to this point and how everything is a repeat, like changing your clothes assuming you will be someone else by doing that. The young can learn something and it will be helpful for them to understand what the meaning of events are we have been forced to make reference to after all this time.

Changing of the year is always tricky when looking at all the small new laws which will go into force as soon as the Ball is lowered. With the privatizing of so many prisons a steady workforce is in demand and it was brought to our attention that Attorney General Sessions now wants to incarcerate people in dept and bringing back Debtor’s Servitude.


Our long time friend Alaia Leighland walked on suddenly. She had just started her new life in Thailand and she will be missed by so many of us.

I am sleepy, I am big and pregnant and so ready to have my cups, question is where do we live? Who has heard of a homeless Lady Bear. It is said bears will eat anything but I don’t know about that. Changing of the callender will take all, animal and humans, to new territory and an unsure future. Guess I will get to hibranating for a bit, my time is coming soon and I will have to chace little bear claws. Lilian made reference to a pastry by that name and I was so relieved when she arrived with”Pig Ears” she calls them….PALMIERS

Love and Light

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December 2017 Newsletter

Mr MCKREGOR rendering a watchful eye and ear

Mr MCKREGOR rendering a watchful eye and ear as to the going on’s since last time I reported. Said task has become harder with almost constant storms blowing me around and not only in the PNW, it is ugly everywhere. It has become somewhat dangerous to be a member of the Bird Family, (No pun intended) especially in November.

1. The act or process of gathering a crop.
2. The crop that ripens or is gathered in a season.
The amount or measure of the crop gathered in a season. The time or season of such gathering.

Forgive me,my bird brain computes harvest with crops, leaves, fruit, vegetables of which are not related to the animal kingdom. At one point during celebrating the close of Harvest killing millions of my distant relatives the Turkey and other members of the animal kingdom became a way of celebrating. I saw on Lilian s Facebook page…. without her knowing of course…. where turkeys were used as bowling balls, statues of famous people and the waste…. so much of the meat was thrown out. Pardoning one (1) Turkey by the American President did not make me feel any better. I guess if you was a Goose, Duck, Chicken or a pig….Thanksgiving means trouble.

Here is an article I found on Lilian’s page under the fair use act I thought I share with you.

Thanksgiving: A Native American View For a Native American, the story of Thanksgiving is not a very happy one. But a member of the Dineh Nation and the Yank ton Dakota Sioux finds occasion for hope.

An AlterNet Thanksgiving classic.
By Jacqueline Keeler / Pacific News Service December 31, 1999, 9:00 PM GMT 345369

I celebrate the holiday of Thanksgiving. This may surprise those people who wonder what Native Americans think of this official U.S. celebration of the survival of early arrivals in a European invasion that culminated in the death of 10 to 30 million native people.Thanksgiving to me has never been about Pilgrims. When I was six, my mother, a woman of the Dineh nation, told my sister and me not to sing “Land of the Pilgrim’s pride” in “America the Beautiful.” Our people, she said, had been here much longer and taken much better care of the land. We were to sing “Land of the Indian’s pride” instead. I was proud to sing the new lyrics in school, but I sang softly. It was enough for me to know the difference. At six, I felt I had learned something very important. As a child of a Native American family, you are part of a very select group of survivors, and I learned that my family possessed some “inside” knowledge of what really happened when those poor, tired masses came to our homes. When the Pilgrims came to Plymouth Rock, they were poor and hungry — half of them died within a few months from disease and hunger. When Squanto, a Wampanoag man, found them, they were in a pitiful state. He spoke English, having traveled to Europe, and took pity on them. Their English crops had failed. The native people fed them through the winter and taught them how to grow their food. These were not merely “friendly Indians.” They had already experienced European slave traders raiding their villages for a hundred years or so, and they were wary — but it was their way to give freely to those who had nothing. Among many of our peoples, showing that you can give without holding back is the way to earn respect. Among the Dakota, my father’s people, they say, when asked to give, “Are we not Dakota and alive?” It was believed that by giving there would be enough for all — the exact opposite of the system we live in now, which is based on selling, not giving. To the Pilgrims, and most English and European peoples, the Wampanoags were heathens, and of the Devil. They saw Squanto not as an equal but as an instrument of their God to help his chosen people, themselves. Since that initial sharing, Native American food has spread around the world. Nearly 70 percent of all crops grown today were originally cultivated by Native American peoples. I sometimes wonder what they ate in Europe before they met us. Spaghetti without tomatoes? Meat and potatoes without potatoes? And at the “first Thanksgiving” the Wampanoags provided most of the food — and signed a treaty granting Pilgrims the right to the land at Plymouth, the real reason for the first Thanksgiving. What did the Europeans give in return? Within 20 years European disease and treachery had decimated the Wampanoags. Most diseases then came from animals that Europeans had domesticated. Cowpox from cows led to smallpox, one of the great killers of our people, spread through gifts of blankets used by infected Europeans. Some estimate that diseases accounted for a death toll reaching 90 percent in some Native American communities. By 1623, Mather the elder, a Pilgrim leader, was giving thanks to his God for destroying the heathen savages to make way “for a better growth,” meaning his people. In stories told by the Dakota people, an evil person always keeps his or her heart in a secret place separate from the body. The hero must find that secret place and destroy the heart in order to stop the evil. I see, in the “First Thanksgiving” story, a hidden Pilgrim heart. The story of that heart is the real tale than needs to be told. What did it hold? Bigotry, hatred, greed, self-righteousness? We have seen the evil that it caused in the 350 years since. Genocide, environmental devastation, poverty, world wars, racism. Where is the hero who will destroy that heart of evil? I believe it must be each of us. Indeed, when I give thanks this Thursday and I cook my native food, I will be thinking of this hidden heart and how my ancestors survived the evil it caused. Because if we can survive, with our ability to share and to give intact, then the evil and the good will that met that Thanksgiving day in the land of the Wampanoag will have come full circle. And the healing can begin.

Jacqueline Keeler is a member of the Dineh Nation and the Yankton Dakota Sioux. Her work has appeared in Winds of Change, an American Indian journal.

It is so hard to understand 2-leggers…. Oh wait… I have 2 legs but I am a winged being. Managed to have a nice little family and raised them in the safety of Lilian’s porch so I have some things to be grateful for. Only how do I get my son ready for his stay on the planet Earth. Sweety is pretty busy these days finding food for Winter and my son is growing keeping us informed of the time hourly. I am kidding about that part… he is a free bird and not stuck in a clock like his species is mostly portrait.

CNN is a News Agency many. In fact most all countries depend on for reports from around the world. Many of their reporters put themselves in life-threatening situations to report stories from around the globe so we, the public, stay informed as to what happens to some degree on our blue Planet. It is a disgrace when CNN is labeled” FAKE NEWS” and FOX, a Right-wing News-outlet is portrait as almost the TV Station of America. In the same breath one can add the ways Internet Neutrality is being handled. Some of the older population sees the writing on the wall as to where it can lead but my little Bird Brain tells me many will miss the danger signs and end up in a rather bad situation when it comes to freedom of expression. Some foreign reporters are being arrested for reporting on certain subjects already. A dangerous path to be on….

Speaking of CNN. They are airing a series about things which happened in the past. The 70’s 80’s and 90’s. Lilian took a look a the 90’s over the holiday and it reminded me of what she does with her Newsletters each month. It shows people, places and things which occurred during these times and reminds people of how life unfolded during those times. It captures history in a non threatening format for future generations. Lets hope shortly it will be reported and recorded that the World is OK again for a minute…

  • 300 People were killed in Cairo Egypt in an attack on a Mosque.
  • Over 500 people died in Puerto Rico as a result of the Hurricane. They are still waiting for help.
  • The United States has ruled to return refugees from Haiti back to their homeland to a devastating place of destruction.
  • Sex scandals are dominating our every day life.
  • Libya has resurrected the Slave Markets and is openly selling Human Beings.
  • Storm ravage the world.
  • Oil-spills on Native Lands polluting drinking water.
Vulcan erupting in Bali
Vulcan erupting in Bali
Vulcan erupting in Mexico
Vulcan erupting in Mexico

The state Supreme Court ruled Thursday that Waterville educator Jin Zhu had a sound basis for his anti-discrimination lawsuit against North Central Educational Services District No. 171, upholding a $450,000 federal jury award Zhu won from the ESD last year.

An American Bi-racial Actress is marring Princess Diana’s youngest Son. Some object a bit but let it be known that British Royalty had people of color in the blood line in the past. Somewhat refreshing if you ask me, considering race relations in the Human Kingdom and than of course there is my little Mixed Family. Guess I am considered a Youngster, my lifespan is 10-12 years, the longest living raven known lived 23 years. However, she was NOT related to me that I know of. Lilian is sad that she has so little interaction with her Grandchildren, the things she could tell them, she is in the Winter of her life and has so many stories, at least she will leave a written record of some things for them and one day they may deem it to be important to know who their Grandmother/Great Grandmother was.

2017 is almost at the end, it has been good to live here and share time and space and observe Human behavior. Humans have become somewhat more uncaring within the last few month, some are hopeful that it will get better soon.

Lilian is familiar with Dineh Etiquette and was ashamed of the President when he insulted the Navajo Code Talkers. It could be a teaching moment but there have so many incidents of this nature and one wonders if there is an end to it soon. The world is watching and sadly following the lead of the madness. Darkness arrives at 3 PM and it makes it so much easier to take a peep at the Telly through the window. We have to stop feeding my son Crow Food he has grown so much and if not careful will no longer fit in little door window.

We have to stop feeding my son

Love and Light
Mr. McKregor

Lilian as crow avatar

This will give you an idea as to how to behave when visiting Navajo Land,

November 2017 Newsletter

Mr. McKrekor says My feathers are ruffled

October, October Mr. McKrekor says. My feathers are ruffled, what a month it has been!

For a minute I thought everything was transpiring smoothly, bordering on boring because it all appeared to deal with the same subjects… depending who was having the conversation and all of a sudden…. things went stellar!

Lilian displayed her weirdest mood we have ever seen her in, to the point I wanted to find myself another place to live. Moody does not describe what she was experiencing it was just wild. Grant you she was very upset when she found out that she was allergic the the Medical Clinic she visits and I don’t want to undermine the fact she almost choked to death for the 3rd time but PLEASE help me….. I have a family to look out for. Not to mention that we were in shock when we discovered our “BABY” turned out to be a Kookuk …. We have adjusted to the idea we are different and Multi-Birdel, I guess why we felt it was a good choice to remain with our Human Friend Lilian…. Just look at us…

Just look at us...
Just look at us... again

She was besides herself when she discovered due to the new Budget there is actually a good possibility the wild horses on the North American Continent will be killed and slaughtered. It read:

Although an advisory board recommended it, the U.S. Bureau of Land Management (BLM) did not vote to euthanize 44,000 wild horses,

Here it is a few days later and the News said they were going ahead with the killings. She went on and on and on about how beyond CRIMINAL this is and how she wishes she had a magic wand and make all the evil people disapear onto an island. Then she remembered that someone else had that horrible idea and actually did when exiling so many criminals killing an imprisoning the Natives already living there and called it Australia. She abandoned that idea immediately. Here it is a few days later and the News said they were going ahead with the killings.

My Sweety told me our hostess also went on a discrete rampage about pictures she had seen of School Lunches that consisted of so little food and sandwiches which resembled 2 slices of bread with Bird Doodoo in the middle. I was insulted about the term Bird Doodoo but Sweety assured me that is what it looked like and she managed to calm me down. PLEASE Human parents check and see what your children are being fed and don’t settled for a calorie chart, go see for yourself.

We have rivalries in the animal world. True, but wars like human beings have over things which appear unimportant to us is hard to understand. In some way we respect territory and food supplies. Forgive my ignorance but in October a young man, De David Johnson became the poster child for some that is wrong in the world. During an ambush he was left behind and killed. It took two days to finally find him. That was bad, but what turned it into a National Disgrace was what came next. The behavior of the Leader of the free world. The way he responded to the family of this young soldier. It took up the news for days. In essence The President totally fumbled a call to the widow and the Country was in arms about it. In true Presidential fashion everything was denied and Twitter was on fire….so to speak… for days. In fact some questioned if the young man’s body was even in the coffin that was buried.

There was little mention of the other three fallen soldiers and it must have made some angry that the young black soldier took the forefront on this event. In case no one has noticed, Race relations in the Human Kingdom leaves much to be desired at this point in time. 2017. Imagine that, one would think it is 1963.

Lilian talks about those days often……
I heard her talk to an old friend from that 1960 time period, her days when she was married and her husband and him were fighting in Vietnam. The sacrifices the families made. Looking back it was all in vain. There was a story on TV where it showed what the Earth looked like from the Space Station. A blue Globe, no borders visible …. just a beautiful ball in space. This how it should be, ONE place for all…. 2-leggers and 4-leggers … to just BE.

These were the pictures released of the 4 Soldiers killed in Niger that day.

4 Soldiers killed in Niger
Staff Sgt. Bryan Black (left to right), Staff Sgt. Jeremiah Johnson and Staff Sgt. Dustin Wright died from wounds sustained during enemy contact in Niger. All three soldiers were assigned to 3rd Special Forces Group at Fort Bragg, N.C. (Army) And than there was Sgt. La David Johnson. 3rd from left.

Thank you for your Service.

Autumn this year is beautiful. Unfortunately the memories of the fires, floods and storms are all but gone even though people are suffering across the land and most of Puerto Rico is still without power, water and has very little food. How fast we forget. Snow has already fallen in places like Virginia, even the mountains of Washington State and many are bracing for an NorEastern.

Lilian finally left her house and went to the store. She had been having trouble with leaving her house… she said she felt out of sorts. She took some pictures and along with Michael Lillies Photo thought she show you how sorrel it looks. One has to be grateful to still enjoy scenes and times like this since the world is holding it’s breath as to what comes next.

how sorrel it looksMichael Lillies Photo

Speaking of out of sorts…. Lilian has been on the phone talking to people around the globe in reference to that feeling. She wanted to know was it just her, is it regional or are others feeling the same way. A friend in Florida, Freyja Leda, had taken a survey and this is what she reported:

Symptoms reported by people all over the globe.

1. Life feels different in every way.

2. Time and the concept of time is different n has a sense of just flowing not ending nor beginning , not moving forward but just repeating.

3. Relationships with family and friends are different, people report that their family members seem aloof, dark, or empty.

4. People report not liking being outside if they don’t have to. Tons of people ranging from all ages, know prefer to stay home.

5. Some people report feelings of being watched and followed.

6. People report a huge increase of anxiety levels and more n more people experiencing panic attacks and social anxiety.

7. People report that food and eating doesn’t feel normal, as if eating is just an illusion.

8. People report a feeling or sense of being empty, dead, or detached from reality.

9. People are increasingly suffering from insomnia as well as night terrors and sleep paralysis.

10. Some people say this planet now feels evil and dark.

11. People report seeing Orbs, shadow people, and some can see energy.
Realize Orbs have been around but not the amount “Normal” people see.

12. People report feeling a ringing in the ears n painful headaches.

13. Feeling way more sensitive to people’s energy.
Experiencing telepathic communication or being able to know what people are really feeling and thinking despite of what they are actually saying.

14. Some people report, being extra aware of living day to day repeating cycles.

OK I’m done for now, I hope this helps!

Lilian thought it all reminded her of 2000 when all gained between 2 and 4 pounds because the gravity of the Earth changed and all needed extra weight to keep their feet on the ground. Not sure if it applied to Birds and other Creatures, but Human Body Shape sure changed…..

Lilian also talked to someone about that since 2012 the world really DID change, maybe we are really somewhere else without realizing. Some Groups have sprung up referring to what they call the Mandala Effect. Not sure if that is fact since every time something changes someone claims to have the answer. All she knows at the moment is that there are time-lines running simultaneously. Lilian is a let’s wait and see type of person, very metaphysical, yet, very logical and scientifically oriented. Just today when she took the drive to the store the Clock on the Highway said it was 4:29 PM He clock in her car said showed it was 6:19 PM and when she stopped and ask someone to give her the time…. according to that person it was 5:13 PM. Had it been an hour difference it could have been that the clocks were early because in 7 days from now there is a time change. It was however so different that anyone’s guess it good….

It has been known for many years that the legal system needs a little adjusting. So it was in October. After a GLOBAL petition failed for justice the following came across Lilian’s Facebook from a virtual friend of hers. I pondered, Birdbrain as I am… for some time and made the decision to share it.

October 6 at 5:49pm ·

One of my closest friends, Michael Lambrix, was murdered yesterday. It was premeditated and the culprits had been threatening him with loss of life for years. Michael was strapped onto a gurney on Florida’s death row and pumped full of poison while a panel of people watched behind a glass partition. The chief culprit was Governor Richard Scott of Florida who signed his execution order after refusing to grant a clemency review. This clemency review, supported by lawyers and a wealth of evidence could have opened the way for a new trial, but the good governor decided to ignore it. Other accomplices included all the chief justices on the Florida Supreme Court, (with the exception of Barbara Pariente, who, apparently possessed a conscience) and all the chief justices on the US Supreme Court, who refused to halt the execution.

Michael Lambrix, on Florida’s death row was convicted of two murders in 1984 but he claimed he killed one (Moore) in self-defense after he attacked the female (Bryant.)

His trials were a farce, as he was forbidden to testify and his lawyer presented absolutely no defense. Nor did he even cross examine any of the state’s witnesses. The first trial in 1983 ended up in a hung jury because the court refused to feed or house the jury overnight when they failed to come to a decision.

During the second trial in 1984 Michael was again forbidden from testifying, no defense was offered by the incompetent lawyer, the new judge, Stanley was renown as a hanging judge and the jury was composed of biased persons related to the local sheriff’s department. No wonder he was found guilty in less than an hour, and it only took them that long because they had to fix the coffee pot!

Michael was sentenced to death by the judge, although the jury’s recommendation for death was not unanimous. Many, many years later, in 2016, this same issue, known as the Hurst decision, stopped the Florida courts from executing people convicted after 2002.

But the Hurst decision couldn’t save Michael, who had endured 34 years of mental torture in solitary confinement in Florida’s toughest prisons.

The appeals system failed him. Because he was unable to procure legal representation on time in the early years, most appeals were forever barred. In later years some evidence was allowed to be presented, but it was inexplicably rejected by the courts. He was never granted a new trial- no doubt because the lack of evidence would have freed him.

I first contacted Michael in early 2000, after reading his advertisement on a prison pen-pals site. There were other men I reached out to and corresponded with, but eventually they faded away. However, Michael and I continued writing over the years and soon forged a very special friendship. He also formed friendships with diplomats, lawyers, law professors, journalists, writers and housewives all around the world. He had an amazing capacity to connect with people from all walks of life, and to relate with them on their own level. This included his beloved daughter Jennifer, who suffers from an intellectual disability.

He was a prolific writer and accomplished jail house lawyer. His lawyers in the early years were so incompetent that he was forced to learn how to defend himself. Michael also helped many other death row inmates with their appeals.

Our friendship grew over the years. I was fortunate enough to visit him in his Florida prison on 3 separate occasions and found him to be a friendly, articulate and gregarious man, with a wonderful sense of humor.

Michael had a very strong sense of justice, something which had always been denied him. From early infancy he had been brutalized by his father, and later denied the loving influence of his mother after a bitter divorce. Within prison, he had been repeatedly assaulted and almost killed when he alerted the press that prisoners were being murdered by guards.

As correspondents, we shared each other’s lives. He talked about prison, his appeals and his family, world events, while I shared my family and my research about ancient civilizations and the world financial situation. He was forever grateful for my friendship and support.

We all knew that his latest death warrant, signed September 1, would be carried out. He had only 5 weeks’ notice, and when hurricane Irma disrupted the courts for 2 weeks, Governor Scott refused to allow an extension.

I was lucky enough to have two final phone calls with Michael. He was remarkably cheerful, joking with the guards and making corny comments about crocodiles in Australian waters. It was a long-standing joke that he always feigned horror at the venomous animals from down under. He did everything to make me laugh. He wouldn’t say goodbye, but thanked me profusely for all my help and support over 17 years. The last phone call, two days before his execution, was so poignant because he wanted me to be happy and not mourn his death. I can only imagine the strain it took him to remain cheerful and joking in order to protect his loved ones during phone calls and final visits.

Despite serving 34 years in solitary confinement, despite pleas from family, friends and organizations, Governor Scott summarily dismissed appeals for a clemency review.

Michael was killed at 10.10 on the 5th day of the 10 month, with the Lord’s Prayer on his lips. Cruelly, the USSC had held up his execution for 4 hours, before allowing it.

Michael Lambrix is gone, but his writings remain. Together we collaborated to write a book about his life in 2010, and he asked if I could republish it in the future, including more of his recent writings.

His execution remains a damning indictment on the Florida and American legal systems. Evidence which could have exonerated him decades ago was obfuscated, denied and ignored by the same people in power who had denied him justice in the early years. They may have killed him but his words live on.

He is survived by his mother and step-father, siblings, three children and grandchildren.

Before Michael’s body was even cold, Governor Scott signed another death warrant in Florida. When will the madness end?

Took time on the day of Michael departing us to reflect how pathetic US justice is. For 34 years Torture a man and still inflict the ultimate resolution to there problem that far down the line.

U.S Justice hang your heads in shame…what a narrow minded pack of HICKS YOU are, that you acted so slow and still maintain so much vindictiveness to one man in the so called named of Justice…..you are a joke!

What Followed were many comments on Facebook and other Social Media pages. Lilian honored the removal of names because people were not comfortable to be immortalized this way. Here are some of them:

Well spoken John.

Beautifully said K, he lives on in these words and it will be great to republish the book with his latest writings. All day I have been imagining the horror of those last hours for him….Blessings to you Michael Lambrix and to you my very dear friend. ❤️

Thanks Michelle. xx

Defies understanding

Just heartbreaking. Thank you, for being a great friend and ally of Michael and for never giving up on him. What a blessing you are. I hope he’s finally found peace

I am just speechless. It defies understanding. It defies all of God’s laws and even defies our own legal system. I love you, K. I am so sorry our signatures did nothing.

Thanks for signing the petition. We tried. xx

I am just so sad and disgusted

I find the justice system in the U.S completely barbaric, the way they have daily tortured one solitary human being for 34 yrs is incomprehensible .

Notwithstanding the total indifference and the one-sidedness that certain …

Thanks for the lovely prayer, Pamela. If by any chance he comes though to you, please let me know.

I certainly will dear lady.
Blessings to you.. ?￰゚マᄏ?

just beautiful

I hope the karma bus comes fast


When our benevolent friend mentioned that some believe this world to be one of the hells, I think he was saying, that this world, indeed, is one of the hells. Godspeed Mr Lambrix.

Long before I hatched Lilian became aware of a young man, he was 15 years old to be exact, that had stared to request Documents from the Government under the Freedom Of Information Act. He listed the documents in what he called THE BALCK VAULT. He picked that name because in some cases almost all lines were blacked out because no-one was suppose to be able t read what was on the paper. At the time Lilian and some friends thought they should mention John when ever given a chance so his name would be a household name and it would serve as a protection for what they then refered to as a young boy. By now the boy is a fine young man and has made quiet a name for himself. His name is John Greenwald. The Late Jim Marrs was a big fan of John’s. In 1992 the court ruled for the JFK Documents to be released to the Nation on October 26th 2017. I think John Greenwald and his Black Vault will be instrumental of getting the rest of the documents, so watch for it. Needless to say only a very small part of the Documents were given to the public. I think John Greenwald and his Black Vault will be instrumental of getting the rest of the documents, so watch for it.

John Greenwald and his Black Vault

If he looks familiar he has grazed the stage of many public events and TV Shows including Lilian’s Show and Ancient Aliens. Many appreciate the hard work he has done for may years.

There is talk of Walmart hireing Robots…. wonder if that is “Fake” News. Never know now that a female Robot was actually given citizenship by Saudi Arabia.

Summer is changing directly to Winter. I am all ready I think. Canadian Geese left for warmer climate, Bears are eating a lot and looking for places to sleep through the Winter

Me and mine are going to stay close to home, Lilian’s Yard, that is. There is food and shelter and as always a shake of a head and a good laugh.

True to Lilian’s 2017 Predictions someone connected to the Trump Circle of friends, Paul Manaford and Rick Gates is going to go to be charged with crimes and asked to report to Authorities today and I am going to stick around to see what 2018 brings….
it suppose to have a light at the end of the tunnel.

Lilian as crow avatar

Stay Strong In Light
Mr. McKrekor

PS. Here is Lilian’s Predictions for 2018

October 2017 Newsletter

Mr McKrekor returning from a flight

Mr McKrekor returning from a flight and ready to report. The world was suppose to end “Again” on September 23,2017. Lilian said it was a bunch of crap, but I was not taking any chances. It was because there was so much left to do…. just in case…. and I soared like an Eagle to gather all I could for you. I know, I know, Eagle I am not, but things are such that it appears everyone is lying from the very TOP down… guess I can away with it, since I am just a humble Crow.

Storms Irma and Maria ravaged much of the land. Irma Florida and Maria was so stubborn she wiped out Dominica and Puerto Rico. I will tell it to you in order as to not to confuse you. Lilian knows people in the 4-corners of the world, so it was this time. Again she set up a HUB and made calls for people affected by the winds and floods. She made new friendships with the workers at Metro Cell, every day she came to the store to have them help and explain something to her about the new phone they had given her. She did have to pay $14.55 for tax and $10.00 for international calling. A couple of friends reported, per phone, to her as long as they could from Florida. They pointed their phones out of the windows of 3rd and 4th floors of buildings and documented the Shelters they found themselves in.

Dominica, population 72660

Nothing came out of Dominica, population 72660, so she don’t know who is living and who died. All she knows she grieves for the families of her friends. She had no contact with private parties on the other islands and only knew what she saw on Television. Puerto Rico friends used their video chats as long as they could and then the country went dark. A FB Friend, Arch, had contact the longest and then she shifted to asking for prayers for the Islands. Lilian posted in English, French and Spanish. As of the 24th of September Maria is still on the move and it will be next month before a report can be filed. For future generation who read this should know the Hurricanes of 2017 was some hardly ever or never seen before, at least as long as records were being kept.

I feel like a Dove or Falcon. Lilian kept asking me to talk to my distant Bird relatives to bring her reports from a bird-eyes view… needless to say I tried to comply to my friend’s wishes. I had really planned to marry my Sweetheart but I was so busy and hectic as the month of September was, would you believe I forgot her name. It is always Sweety and she answers. She is never going to forgive me. And there she is looking so sad. I think it is sad or am I misunderstanding something here….

she is looking so sadIsabelle, her cat suffered burned paws

Remember Lilian’s obsession with the Grand Mound? When she gets like that she is like a Doberman and just won’t give up. Ever noticed when a Doberman Pincher gets hit by a car it is always the head sustaining the injury because they only look forward, frontal, never paying attention to their surroundings. Well, like President Trump would say: Believe me….. and please do it’s Mr. McKregor…. when Lilian gets like that something is going to happen, she knows something, just not what it is and she won’t move on to the next thing until what ever it is she doesn’t know happens. Well, a brush-fire got out of hand at the Grand Mound. Several residents were ordered to evacuate but Lilian’s friend and her husband chose to stay behind to fight the fire and and safe the pets. Isabelle, her cat suffered burned paws. Somehow they saved the house. Six buildings, residential and commercial were lost that day. What upset her friend greatly that this was the result of a planned, controlled burn…. even though it was hot and the County was under a Burn Ban. The burn got out of hand. I am in the same County if I light a fire during a burn ban the fine is $1000. I thought Lilian was pulling my leg BUT there it is. She showed it to me.


I am glad her friend came out OK.


Sweety is pouting, not sure what it is called when a Bird female rolls her eyes at you, but she is really still upset and she wants to share a branch with me. It has not rained in 82 days so where am I suppose to find a worm for her, guess a nibble on Lilian’s Animal Crackers will have to do. Not the healthiest and I don’t like the Idea that some of them are shaped like Owls. That will keep Sweety busy and hopefully happy long enough for me to finish telling you all about my acquired knowledge for September.

The Human population is restless, cars have a mind of their own, now that they have actual brains and everything is out of sorts. Lilian drove to the TV Station on the back roads since her car was always having emotional disturbances LesShwab and Jiffy Lube were unable to diagnose, so I caught a hop. Still tired from my information gathering flight I just came along and as I mentioned Lilian talks to everything including herself. So it was today.

“Autumn has arrived, everything is so colorful. The days are still warm but it gets cold at night, to the point a fire or heater is welcomed. Why are so many Homeless people emerging from the City? Reminds me when as a young girl I was homeless and had to fabricate some shelter out of leaves and branches by the Railroad Tracks. The reason I chose the tracks so I would not get lost, if I followed the tracks I had a sense of direction, in fact animals avoided the tracks for fear to get killed…… What are the people going to do now that it is getting cold. Most Stores no longer allow Homeless… anyone for that matter to use the Facilities. (Bathrooms)

President Trump addressed the United Nations. Lilian watched it and I got to sit on some black roses she bought at the Dollar Tree, she said it was special. Reminded her of an old Lover… go figure, but that is where I sat. She explained to me what is expected when addressing the UN, since 3 of her friends had also addressed the UN at one time or another. As expected it did not go well for the American President, all he accomplished is to escalate an already scary, dangerous situation with the leader of North Korea. The pissing Contest between those two contiues and no one is sure what the final consequences are in the making for the people of several countries as a result of it. President Trump while creating other problems to get people riled up left the coalition dealing with Climate Change…admidst his own country coming apart with Natural Disasters. Washington State is continuing to implement everything that was included in the agreement and Washingtonians are so proud of their Governor Enslee.

The travel ban has been renewed, if you can call it that, Understandably North Korea was added, so was Venezuela with new restrictions. Hawaii has Emergency Tests in case of a nuclear attack since the danger has been so escalated. Imagine the tax money that will cost to fight in court… AGAIN… Wonder if Travel-Ban applies to me, I am black and there is Sweety.. snowwhite, guess mixed couples are being frowned on again.

Mexico is greatly suffering from major Earthquakes, almost looks like a war-map when you look at an Atlas. Like Earth wants to retaliate for Mexico not paying for that WALL, not even willing to “repair it”, as it has been heard to be called lately. So many died there, the people are so relentless. It DOES look like the country was under attack.

Sunflower seeds and Watermelon seeds… Lilian has taken up eating Watermelons daily, someone told her it helps her kidney problem. Good for me I guess been feeding the seeds to Sweety, not sure if that is something for Crows but they say we examine, even steal stuff. It is in our nature. Hope to keep her happy, Sweety that is, for a bit longer. She is really mad because I have not spend any time with her. Unlike Lilian I am not able to run two time-line simustanial.

CASINI space probe ended it’s 20-year mission. https://www.space.com/38167-cassini-spacecraft-plunges-into-saturn.html

About seven years ago Lilian befriended a young Afghanistan boy on line. She remembered a TV Show she taped with a friend who profiled different countries, for worthy opponents, he called it, for war. He had worked in that capacity in Russia and was brought to the US after the war. It was really interesting and the Tacoma Newspaper wrote an article about the show. One of the things he talked about was out of all the people he had ever profiled Afghanistanies were the most loyal in the world. The show was taped before we were involved in the conflict in Afghanistan. Because of the conflict people again look different at people from certain countries and Lilian and her young friend were caught up in the change of circumstances. At one point Lilian no longer corresponded with the young man. It saddened her to have, like times before, to restrict her friendship with people from around the world because of politics and conflicts. A few days ago the young man contacted her again reminding her that she was still a friend and to please allow him access to her life again. It was hard to explain that she was worried about the paranoia we have developed since we are under a new Administration. What was hard to explain was that in America we can take pictures with guns but if anyone else does it is sometimes misunderstood. A few hours later he contacted her again telling her he had removed everything that looked like any kind of weapon from his time-line for her to please stay his friend. It is so sad to have to make decisions and hurt people without reason, just because it is fashionable, expected or demanded. What the world needs is peace for all. Want to see an Oxymoron?

an Oxymoron

That really happened……

There is such controversy as to who should do what so Lilian took the time and researched the subject. What her friend at FIJA… Fully Informed Jury Association… taught her came in very handy. She read the whole case…. Look it up yourself.

319 U.S. 624
West Virginia State Board of Education v. Barnette (No. 591)

Argued: March 11, 1943
Decided: June 14, 1943

Supreme Court: Jackson wrote the majority opinion for the Court, which was split 6-3. Jackson held that making it compulsory to salute the flag and pledge allegiance was a violation of the First and Fourteenth Amendments and was not able to be justified as a means of achieving patriotism and national unity. Jackson reasoned that saying the pledge of allegiance was speech as it communicated an expression of set ideas. By making this speech a requirement it violated the First Amendment values.

violated the First Amendment values

New Century Times

While the country is under attack by Natural Disasters and division created by our Leader another Country held elections. Germany re-elected Angela Merkle and unfortunately a party which has the same outlook as President Trump…. some called it the old Nazi Party regained power. I suppose Humans have to grow wings in order to fly above the pollution of the present Human mind and attitudes. Am I glad I am just a meager Crow.

While there are daily threats of nuclear war…so unnecessary in the big picture of things, it is easy to forget that there are also great things happening. A New Star Trek Series is airing on CBS on Sunday, Ancient Aliens is now airing in Germany and available in other places. The pumpkin harvest is almost at an end, kids are back in school and people are starting to feel generous towards their fellow man. It happens every year.

Global Citizin Festival took place admids the Chaos. Again Hollywood and the Music World united and once again is trying to change the world… actually trying to put it back to where it was BT. There were so many wonderful people all in unison. Some of the old stars were there from around the world. It was like the world had caught it’s footing and regained it’s senses. The old timers from Farm Aid were all preforming their songs and the young people of ALL races were singing along like they had been occupying the planet for Millenniums. It was WONDERFUL! We are the world! We can do this again.

Sweety is out of seeds and finally hopping a bit closer. Maybe she worries about the cat… there, close the door and stay for a spell. What is troubling you, I can see something is not right. Well, Mr McKrekor we have a problem. While you were traveling the country I was busy trying to create a home, Winter is coming after all and it will be a bad one. Like I said I was trying to make a home and I don’t know what happened when the nest was completed look what we ended up with…..

look what we ended up with

Lilian as crow avatar
Peace to all


September 2017 Newsletter


Mr McKrekor PRESENT….with my Sweetheart having lunch and trying to sort out the crazy month of August.

I wanted to discuss the possibility of a soon to be marriage and having our nest made before the cold and rain came back….a hard winter is predicted but she wanted to talk about the stars and the moon. I think she is hanging out with Lilian and her friends more than I realized. But who am I to complain, was it not for that I would not have ran into this beauty and I trying to her make mine….

Lilian did a work up on an update for 2017 events and posted her findings. Mercury usually turns retrograde three times a year, but in 2017 there are four Mercury retrograde phases,at this time Mercury Retrograde in Virgo: August 12, 2017

Saturn from April 6, 2017 until August 25, 2017.

Pluto from April 20, 2017 until September 28, 2017.

  1. Persons Ego will re-enforced because of flattery.  A leader who agitates.  Necessary to have power of decision.

    This is Trump. He is never going to change and it is up to the people to make a decision as to keep their leader or not.  It would appear by the time they make up their mind it is almost the end of the term and much destruction has taken place.  Can only hope I am wrong and there will be a quick solution…

  2. KRONOS looks scary, but is harmless if you pay attention.  Very tough on the outside, but can be reasoned with.

    Kronos is a mystical animal resembling a walrus with a horn.  It looks scary but is within it’s own species a gentle being which likes to be left alone and not react unless attacked.

    I think this AT THIS MOMENT is North Korea,  He will back down as soon as he no longer feels threatened and he wants to be validated.  Small dogs bark loud and often to be heard and true, their bite can be sharp and painful if they nip at you ankles.

  3. Sadness, hidden energies,loss of freedom,uncontrollable fear,  Lack of communications.
  4. Confusion.  Do not let yourself be carried away by passion or greed.

    Some think all is well and fall victims to delusion.

  5. Your protection will become your prison.
  6. Metal,wood,defend and attack. Excessive force. problems with security do to bad performance.

    The disorder on the top will continue, so will police brutality.

  7. Time lost, false promises.  The bread you deny others will be taken away from you.

    Many allies  are turning their back on us because they lost respect and noticed our uncaring ways.

  8. You got what you wanted.  Social standing is unstable and your circle will be endless.

    This makes reference to electing Trump.

  9. Uneasiness, nervousness, numb feeling…it is a mental block.  Do NOT wait till sadness knocks on the door….get back to reality!
  10. Sorrow, confusion,tears.  Psychic inability due to underlying violence,hard to determine anything.
  11. False promises and vanishing success.
  12. Fire,failures of fuel and electricity due to corruption.  Someone wants what belongs to us.  Creditors demanding payment and much death————– WAR.
  13. A need to cocoon, You should have taken an  advantage of the bonanza, only thing now is to wait for a new opportunity.  It is YOUR FAULT.

Lilian has been looking at her and some other’s predictions for 2017. It appears that everyone has a piece of what is going on at the moment. It is not really surprising since 2017 is so turbulent and in so many ways unpredictable.

Lilian was contacted by Swami Lokesh Kumar Singh and it was decided to have her look at 2017 again. Many things they discussed happened within a couple of days. She went to the studio, set up the set, all was ready to tape the show when her Guides instructed her to stop and NOT do the show. She did and went home. She thought she was not suppose to look at the future at the moment. After reviewing the original Predictions it appears that the events are correct except some played out somewhat different that perceived, which is a good thing since the “Trouble Shooting” is done to change things humans don’t like and what is predicted WILL have a different outcome.

total eclipse of the Sun
Picture by Michael Lillie

Some say the total eclipse of the Sun effected the tides in Washington State and a fish farm had damage to the nets, which resulted in 305.000 Atlantic Salmon escaping creating an imbalance in the Eco System. People were encouraged to try and catch them and we, Birds, tried helping also. Not sure how it is ending time will tell. All I know Atlantic Salmon and Pacific Salmon are not compatible and there is concern as to what will happen when Pacific Salmon is going to spawn.

Make sure you have ID regardless of age when buying whip cream at the Dollar Store. You have to be 18 and tell them you are NOT HUFFING Whip cream. They justified the comments by stating there was a chemical in the can that people get high on.

The 10 dead sailors from the US Destroyer John S, McCain are recovered and identified as junior ranking servicemen mostly working as electronics and communications technicians.

The world lost the great Dick Gregory in August, one of a few who told things the way the are. Comedian, Activist and Human Being he got an A+ for this lifetime.

Electronic attacks on US Diplomats in Cuba brought the subject into the forefront. This is not a new subject to some because Jim Marrs and Lilian were attackt like that at a conference once. Unfortunately Jim Marrs died this month or he would have had a lot to say about this. I am sure he would have speculated that Cuba does not have the capability to do so on their own but Russia and US do. That project has been in the works for many years it is only now that it is openly being discussed. Condolences for Jim’s Family came from all around the world. Ingo Swan would have been another friend able to shed a bit a light on the subject but he passed away a few of years ago, guess we have to rely on whom ever wants to explain what happened…. Jim was a good friend and had a lot to offer the world, a big loss for Lilian and her friends.

L-R Lilian Ingo Swann Jim Marrs
L-R Lilian Ingo Swann Jim Marrs


Ingo Douglas Swann was a claimed psychic, artist, and author known for being the co-creator, along with Russell Targ and Harold Puthoff, of remote viewing, and specifically the Stargate Project. wikipedia.org

Lilian's grandson's plight with his custody of his daughter

We have been following Lilian’s grandson’s plight with his custody of his daughter. To refresh your memory he had lost joint custody earlier in the year and was giving visiting privileges for 2 weeks each year. His time for the visit was in August, I will give you the highlights.

He lives and works in Corpus Christ TX.

He flies to Michigan to pick up his daughter and comes home to Washington State. ( Seattle Airport).

They spend 1 week with the family.

At the end of the week he flies to Michigan to return the daughter since MOM decided she wanted to send the child one week at a time only.

He flies back to Seattle and returns to Michigan 1 week later to fly back to Seattle.

One week later he flies to Michigan to return his daughter and returns to Corpus Christi TX. Dizzy yet?


He was going to document it for you including cost of 6,repeat,6 plane tickets except he is tight up with Hurricane Harvey at the moment so he will revisit the Child Care fiasco with you next month.

Speaking of Malcolm.  He works on Wind Turbines in Corpus Christi.  He lives in Rockport and had to evacuate ahead of Hurricane Harvey. He went to Austin and thinks he will be able to return in a few days.  Unless you are a bird there is no way all roads are closed or washed out and 100’s of miles are under water.  The Death count has not been established but this storm is one of the worst in American history. It was also the only storm I have known to make landfall 3 times in my friend Lilian’s lifetime. She is 70 years old. She did see this storm in October 2016 in the predictions for 2017. Much worse than Katrina…my Sweety reminded me. Malcolm did make it back to Rockport safely. While on the road he reported the following:

Driving back to Corpus Christi and I’ve seen dozens and dozens of personal trucks and trailers heading to Houston with pallets of water, generators, diapers, formula and other necessities. It has put some faith back into humanity for me.
Texans going out of their way, spending thousands to help those in need makes me finally think, Texas isn’t so bad.

Thanks to everyone helping out, stay safe.

Luckily he had taken his Camper with him and it is still unclear how he managed to travel so many storm effected roads.

Lilian was a nervous wreck all during the time he was traveling and tried to imagine the energy apprehension multiplied my thousands felt like. She talked to several friends in different parts of the country who like her experienced periodic crying spells that came on all of a sudden. We,animals sense and feel discrepancies in Nature,so do some human beings who are Sensitives. The world is so contaminated with electronic smog I wonder just how much longer we can ‘Feel” things before electronic sounds drown out everything.

OH,OH,my Sweety is getting frustrated, she does not like it when I get so involved in ‘Humanness” she calls it and than I have to attempt to explain again that we are ALL effected, man and beast, by the screw-ups of modern man who is contaminating the planet into extinction.

Next post from Malcolm was as follows:

I visited the RV park where I stayed for the last 6 months and it was unrecognizable. I was speechless driving through town.
#hurricaneharvey #rockport #damaged #cat4 #eyeofthestorm #gladipulledout @ Rockport, Texas

it was unrecognizable 01it was unrecognizable 02

The President wished everyone well and suggested they stay safe while he was busy doing his work and THIS is what happened in 1 day. Repeat 1 day:

North Korea lounged 3 rockets. ( 3 more a couple of days later)

President Trump issued formal orders to ban Transgender people from joining the Military. If I am not mistaken it also includes dismissing transgender military already serving.

President Trump granted a full pardon to Sheriff Arpaia while his trial was still in process since he had not been sentenced.  By doing so interfered with the judicial process of the case. Arpaia is the Sheriff who ran his jail like a Concentration Camp and is responsible for people’s death.

President Trump started the process of overriding laws which were put in place top protect the Dreamers.  Undocumented people brought to the US as children by their parents.

President Trump, per Twitter, promoted a friend’s book and talked about the stupid wall.

President Trump is planning on reversing President Obama’s ban on local police forces buying military equipment, which was put in place after police in Ferguson, Missouri controversially used tanks and other military weapons against protesters after the shooting of Michael Brown.

A few days before it became apparent during a speech in Charlottesville VA why so many of President Obama’s protective laws put in place for minority population were reversed. The White Supremacy Agenda reared it’s head and it looks like it will stay for some time.   I wonder if this applies to me and my Sweetheart since we are of different color….guess I have to keep you posted.  What I do know it is of great concern for me and my Sweetly, especially since we plan on hatching a few eggs before years end and unless the Trump Administration changes it’s course it will present a big problem.

Subpoenas in reverence to the “RUSSIAN-PROBE” have been issued.  From the original staff at the White House many are no longer on the job, they were either fired or resigned.  Hundreds of important positions in Government have not been filled and one wonders how anything even resembles the government.

Trump signed the executive order mid-August, effectively getting rid of the Federal Flood Risk Management Standard, saying it would allow the permitting process to go by much, much faster for important infrastructure projects.

Wolves and Coyotes are in danger, it is now allowed to kill those wonderful animals and one wonders what is next.

India, China agree to ‘expeditious disengagement’ of Doklam border dispute.

10 refineries were damaged, within 2 days of the storm gas went up 30 cents per gallon and this is only the beginning.  Wonder if it would be advisable to tell people to grow wings real quick so they can get around.  Mail per pigeons are almost a thing of the past but I am telling you it worked in the past and at the rate the world is going it is reverting back to the stone age…well, maybe not THAT far, but some of the old methods are still workable solutions.  Social Media is how people stay informed, locate missing persons and keep track of the affairs of the world.

Flood in Houston 01Flood in Houston 02Flood in Houston 03
Flood in Houston Steve Gonzales/Houston Chronicle Second Top: Somalia. Bottom: India

The name Harvey means : DUALITY….TEACHER… 222 so it represents Union….is ruled by both. Chaos in a orderly fashion runs through his life and he projects the mood of people around him….. he likes to ponder his ideas and utilize what he has discovered .  STRONG AND ARDENT,guess he lived up to his name is is still causing death and distraction as we speak.

Harvey united the people. They helped one another, no matter who they are. Maybe instead of going to Texas President Trump should go to his tower and let everyone be Americans again.

While the storms rage there was also a second fire in her vicinity at Grand Mounds WA. Many houses were lost and this weekend Lilian with me and Sweety in tow will check out the damage for next newsletter, since there is a lot to THAT story.

Lilian was a hub, if you will, for contacts during the disaster. She has acted in this capacity for many years and jokenly calls it a traffic cop for disaster. As she was making a copy of the latest weather map for friends who only had limited access to the internet she noticed the storm resembled an animal.

Looks like a bear to me
BEAR is your judgment off?  How about the ones around you,  are you missing what is beneficial in your life.
Are you not seeing the core of goodness in this situation. Bringing awakening power to the forefront and become strong.

Alaia Leighland
like a bear to me

Millard Mayfield
Global warming is real stay tune for the winter.

Shelia Powers

Shelia Powers

Susan Bain

Susan Baina

Lilian Mustelier

Lilian Mustelier
bear is fitting for me…
BEAR is your judgment off? How about the ones around you. are you missing what is beneficial in your
Are you not seeing the core of goodness in this situation, Bringing awakening power to the forefront and become strong.

Renate Strang

Renate Strang
I see both, the bear and the hyena

Rom Johnson

Rom Johnson Hyena

Lilian Mustelier

Lilian Mustelier HYENA: ability to love, even when abused. In Greek
Mythology it is guardian of the dead and also motherhood
representing nurturing and family

Harvey to make third landfall Wednesday.

If only there was a thirsty Dragon from the sky stopping by and drinking all that water……..

As Lilian drove around she, like she does often was talking to herself. She does not play the radio while driving, she says she has to be able to hear her engine. She was questioning herself if every word she says was being annualized by someone as they do with President Trump, if people could understand what she means. She also talks in riddles at times and one wonders if it is perceived in the way it is presented. She let out a yelp and wondered if she could accidentally be mistaken for a TRUMP-ET.

Lilian as crow avatar

Love and Light

August 2017 Newsletter

R. McKrekor here, in a hurry

If July was a river, flying over it would have resembled fast rushing water after a snow melt. It flowed fast and furious, if one thinks it flowed at all. Depends who you asked. We, in the Bird family have a grapevine much a sea creatures do, having said that I found out that much of America had flooded and Europe was drenched in rain for days and days. The American West could have used a bit of moisture as fires were raging. One would think in a perfect world things would be a bit more balanced…HA… nothing balanced these days. OOPS, had better pay attention where I am soaring to but I am in a hurry to meet up with my bride, been a few days since I have seen here, She is a Beauty, would you agree?

She is a Beauty

Some of the repairs from Lilian’s neighborhood from the Tornado/Wind Burst are all but completed. Sadly the Hawk Family who had their nest under the overhang of the neighbors roof is still looking for a new home. They continue to circle over Lilian’s house and even paid a visit the night the Space Station flew over the neighborhood the night of July 24th.

I had planned to meet my Sweetheart at the local TV Station, a great place to pick up some gossip and visit with friends, especially on Fridays when Lilian spends time there while loading her shows to Youtube/psygeria… In order to get there I stopped in the parking lot at Target and nibbled on a snack, in fact I tried figuring out to save some goodies for my Lady, except that turned out a silly notion I sometimes forget I do not have pockets. Which reminds me I heard rumors that it is time again to get concerned about “THE BIG ONE” small quakes are happening almost daily and tuck on our memories not to forget where we are and Mother Earth is on the move. At least once a week something to that effect is being aired on local Television and adorns the isles of local grocery stores by the cash registered so it won’t be missed.


Make sure you and those with you are safe.

  • Prepare an emergency kit with at least a 2-week supply of non-perishable food, water and other basic items.
  • Consider taking steps to reduce earthquake hazards in your household.
  • Make sure your natural gas water heater is strapped to a wall or post.
  • Be familiar with the shut-off valve on your gas appliances.
    Use flexible pipe connections to connect all gas appliances to the hose line that goes to your meter.
  • Install a gas shutoff valve at each gas appliance so you can turn it off when necessary.
  • Consider installing an earthquake valve.

IF the water of the Sound raises by 1 (ONE) inch Olympia will be submerged by water.

While circling the parking lot at Target I witnessed an exchange between a Police cruiser and Lilian. She put her hand up in the air as she approached the police car and said she wanted to report a what could be real quick out of control fire she saw on her way to town on one of the back roads . The Police officers demanded she put her hands down stressing they was NOT going to shoot, listened to her and decided it was not their jurisdiction. A few days later a Lady in Minneapolis was shot after calling the police to report a crime. The things people have to think about these days. On the same line of “CRAZY” a few days later Lilian drove to town. The roads were in the process of being repaired when she came to the stop by the old Olympia Brewing Company. The Beer factory has been dormant it and without power for many years. Lilian has excellent hearing and thought there was a whooshing noise coming from the abandoned building. She drove 3 miles to the Olympia PD to report in person what she thought she heard. She was told it was happening in Tumwater jurisdiction, she should go back and investigate it further. I can’t repeat how she answered but it ended with Hell No I am going to a family Party and left.


And Parties there were…. Malcolm came from Texas and Skylar flew in from Michigan for a Daddy-welcome- home Party and Iliana 7th Birthday Party a few days later. I had never seen so many kids in a back yard swimming pool before. Not that I had a lack of water, can’t drink chlorinated water anyway…. in fact I zwitchered about that to some of the young ones. They think water is water. In fact Lacey Water is not good for us feathered creatures, it is fluoridated, BUT an ordinance was just adopted so that practice will quit. Fluoride is medicine and someone at one point had the great idea to put it in to EVERYONE’S drinking water.

The streets are full of beautiful RETRO cars and the new ones look like the old ones, the ones people claim to have had fun driving. All colors. Happy fun cars. People in the yard washing their prize possessions and socializing, a sight to see.

They talk about the crazy politics tolerated by so many, the new skirmishes between Palestine and Israel. The virtual world is so connected at times it feels like everyone knows someone in each land in the world and imagine how easy it would be to accept that they are all of the same species…well…. Most of them…..

When they say Birds of a feather….. I have something to say about THAT!

Dysphoria or Ethnic Identity Disorder (EID) is a Psychological condition, in which a person (HUMAN) believes that they are a member of a group other than their biological parents. It doesn’t matter what you know, it matters how you identify yourself and how you behave, and who you associate the most with. In the Bird kingdom a Cuckoo lays his eggs in someone elses nest to hatch and be raised my another bird species. This does not apply to humans, that would be a foster parent or an adoption. There was a question put to Native Americans what considered one a Native by percentage and DNA. Lilian’s Australian Aboriginals responded by saying this is NOT how they look at this subject, IF a person considers themselves to be Indigenous that is what they are. Lilian gave this some thought in reference to the current President. Giving his Birth Background and who he identifies with. Please take a look at his choices in wives and friends. He looks as many things much like an Eastern Europien would and chances are he has really no clue what it is like to think like an American, in which case he really sees nothing wrong with his line of thinking. A friend of Lilian’s, Sharon Lewis, is a Blues Singer. She goes on World Tours and just returned from Russia. Lilian asked her what the average person in that country thinks about this subject. Sharon thought they were wonderful. Caring, loving people. Lilian remembers her childhood and interactions with Solgiers from that country as brutal and very scary. At this time in her life she also remembers her friendship with a few natives from there and that were very good relationships. Therefore one cannot stereotype and in my bird-brain it would be logical that the term Dysphoria or Ethnic Identity Disorder (EID) applies. Count your blessings, it could be worse…. in form of a God Complex.

An Iceberg broke off
An Iceberg crack

An Iceberg broke off and it may be some time before we know just how much danger it represents, the face of Mother Earth is changing, if only Humans would pay more attention, especially now that in America there is an administration who does NOT wants to acknowledge Climate Change.

Lilian got lost on her way to the Doctor and ran into a GREAT MOUND. She secured permission from the tribe who the property belongs to to take a look. She wants to just sit there and see if she can connect with the energy present. She thinks more attention should be paid to the Mound and it was not accident that she ended up there.

Sadness arrived with the death of another some in her family were close to and we wish her well on her journey. She was allowed to live on Earth for 52 years and it so greatly missed.

homegoing celebration card

Lots going on in Lilian’s cyberspace reality and on July 17th, a day she celebrates, she posted the following:

Today 51 years ago I arrived at my new home. America.

Roberta Ellen Smith Apple, Guddu Tiwari and 10 others responded, here are some of the comments.

Suzanne Gribble
 Welcome. Sorry it’s not in as good condition as it was.

Sharon Lewis Happy to have you! ❤

Cari M. Huston I’m awfully glad you did.

Another person apologist for it not being the same country she came to because of all the problems we are currently experiencing.
Wait, if you take a good look at everything things are mighty similar, people went forward and now backwards again.

Another friend of Lilian’s practically got a standing ovation, if that is possible, when he notified the public of a decision he made.

With Regret – Why I Must Leave MUFON Completely
Posted on: July 22nd, 2017
by James Clarkson
With Regret – Why I Must Leave MUFON Completely

I am addressing this letter to all MUFON State Directors and Members of the Board. I joined MUFON in 1987 in Washington State where I have lived since 1977 when I was honorably discharged from the Army. Recently I resigned from my position as Washington State MUFON Director for reason that will be explained. Chase Kloetzke asked me if I would remain as an FI, STAR Team member and investigator for the Special Assignments Team. Hesitantly, I agreed to remain out of respect for her. Shortly after that, I heard about the MUFON Inner Circle as part of the disclosures from Jan Harzan when he was interviewed by Kevin Randle. For the reasons explained below I believe I must leave MUFON altogether.

Since I am certain that most of you know very little about me, I will tell you that after I arrived in Washington state on 1975, I completed a 20-year career as a police sergeant with numerous assignments such as fatal accident team supervisor and detective sergeant. I have also spent 2 years as a child abuse detective and 10 years as a state fraud investigator. On a parallel path, I have had a lifelong commitment to trying to explore the UFO Mystery.

Given the situation that I am addressing, where I live is extremely relevant to my decision to quit MUFON. I live in Olympia in Thurston County in Washington State; Olympia is 19 miles from Yelm, WA, the location of the world headquarters of the cult leader, JZ Knight AKA Ramtha, who is arguably the richest and most powerful member of the MUFON Inner Circle. I am painfully aware of all the negative consequences that may arise from the influence of those in the MUFON Inner Circle.

I did not know JZ Knight’s role in MUFON until after I heard the Kevin Randle interview of Jan Harzan, not long after I resigned as a MUFON State Director. Given the power and influence of JZ Knight, and not knowing how much influence she truly has in MUFON, I may be taking a risk by daring to voice a concern about her Inner Circle status. At the same time, I will not have my reputation in this field compromised by affiliating with a rich and powerful cult leader who is now a member of the MUFON Inner Circle.

To fully understand my position, I would ask that the reader should study two web articles and then return to this letter:

  1. http://kevinrandle.blogspot.com/2017/06/mufon-racism-and-dodging-questions.html
  2. http://www.alternet.org/belief/ramtha-new-age-cult-leader-unleashes-drunken-racist-homophobic-rants-large-following

Right after the recent resignation of another MUFON State Director and charter member, Rich Hoffman, I resigned my directorship because of long-term burnout and a growing sense that MUFON as a serious UFO investigative organization no longer exists. I suspect that I am not the only State Director suffering from a deep malaise while watching MUFON become an income-generating enterprise. The triggering event for me was the lack of an immediate dismissal of John Ventre from his State Directorship after his racist outburst on Facebook, or at least an immediate statement that Ventre’s comments were not acceptable coming from a leader of MUFON.

Because of what I am about to explain, remaining in MUFON in any capacity is morally unacceptable. Simply, I will not place my reputation as an Investigator and Researcher into the hands of JZ Knight or other mysterious people who have purchased a position of influence at the highest levels of MUFON. And from the Kevin Randle interview I have learned that John Ventre is still an Inner Circle member. He may also be appointed to any number of key positions in the future. Before you pass judgment on my reaction to the disclosure that JZ Knight is a member of the MUFON elite, please consider that you do not live in her immediate shadow. You are not privy to the local news that I am.

I communicated directly with Rich Hoffman after he had said his goodbyes, and he told me that he was worn out trying to seek better treatment of field investigators and state directors by the leaders of MUFON; he said he was just worn out from trying. If you want the specifics, then you must ask him. I also resigned because I have had the sense for a long time that no matter how often I promoted MUFON over many years during numerous UFO lectures, in my books, lectures, and elsewhere, I would remain “Unacknowledged.” I don’t pretend I am better than anyone else, but any work horse in harness would like to be given an apple occasionally and be patted on the head.

I think I am not a lot different than other State Directors who devote hundreds of hours to running on the CMS Hamster Wheel, who spend their own money, time and effort to promote MUFON to the public. One of the criticisms I have of MUFON is that if you are not a Jaime Maussan or a Steven Greer, or someone with money to donate, then you are just one of the cogs in the machine. You do your job until you wear out and then you are replaced. Even State agencies as bureaucratic as they are, will give you a certificate and a pin for longevity.

For the last 9 years I have been the Washington State Director. I have personally investigated over 750 cases for MUFON; I have assisted in the investigation of countless others, recruiting and training Field Investigators and by assisting Peter Davenport of the National UFO Reporting Center and William Puckett of UFOs Northwest. I have lectured at major conferences across the country and once in Paris. I have appeared on countless internet radio interviews, a TV gig or two and I have written two books. I have always proudly talked about my position in MUFON. Right now, I have a YouTube interview which garnered over 19,000 views in 4 weeks. But I really believe I could walk in with a Gray on each arm and hand out pieces of memory metal as souvenirs, but in MUFON I would be invisible. I am living proof that “No man is a prophet in his own kingdom.” It is hard to watch an organization that you once served proudly become an income-generating entertainment company. And then you just can’t do it anymore.

It is not my way to draw attention to my background or accomplishments. There are many in MUFON with far greater than mine. I am describing myself fully so that others may relate to how disconnected I have felt while working as a State Director while watching MUFON move away from being an investigative organization to what will probably be a UFO entertainment franchise business. I draw that conclusion because I was one of the six State Directors who was interviewed at length by a business consultant.

That in-depth interview may be summarized simply: Have you incorporated your MUFON organization? How much income do you generate as a MUFON State organization, and how much can you donate?

I am hoping that this letter may be a catalyst for real change in MUFON’s direction if it is not already too late. The influence of the money-worshipping corporate mentality is already damaging our country like cancer; what is happening to MUFON doesn’t seem much different.

It appears the focus is so concentrated on income generation that anything like investigative integrity is just an anachronism. Caring about investigative integrity has become a nuisance. I am providing evidence in the form of one example.

The Special Assignments Team (SAT) was asked to investigate “part” of a very dubious 1946 UFO Crash case submitted by Paola Harris. Who ever heard of partially investigating a UFO report, especially when the key piece of evidence is a cast aluminum windmill pump part that is being presented as an artifact stolen from the interior of a crashed UFO in 1945? The SAT found critical investigative failures. She claimed the site was deliberately planted with noxious weeds that were genetically modified by the Government to deter UFO researchers from exploring the alleged crash site, and then on Harris’ own YouTube videos, we see the same group walking through the weeds wearing shorts. Apparently, they no longer needed to wear the full body isolation suits that look so “scientific” on camera. And the result? We got to watch Harris be given special status and an award at the Symposium. I have attached a report with evidence to support this statement. Please note that Frank Kimbler supplied the scientific data and he gave me full permission to use it as I see fit. I know that he would appreciate its inclusion herein. This is one example of many.

Within the Kevin Randle interview the reader is left with the suggestion that being a member of the Inner Circle is just about receiving a few perks. That was implied so that none of the readers would be too alarmed by having to imagine what happens when a cult leader who channels a 35,000-year-old Lemurian Warrior named Ramtha ascends to a position of authority in MUFON. I would point out that Marie Malzahn was an Inner Circle member of MUFON who worked as the Director of Investigations replacing Chuck Reever in 2010. So, every State Director should contemplate what happens if Ramtha is running UFO Investigations for MUFON, or if there are even stranger developments arising from recruitments to key positions in MUFON from the Inner Circle elite.

I know this situation has the potential for very bad outcomes because in 2011 when I was trying to assist an excellent new FI regain access to CMS after she was arbitrarily locked out, Director Malzahn ordered me to obey her or else. I chose the “or else.” After I returned in 2012 at the request of Dave MacDonald, I made peace with Ms. Malzahn. In 2013, she asked me if I could carry a gun in Nevada to help guard Dr. Steven Greer who requested armed bodyguards at the Symposium. Somewhere along the way she must have offended someone who had real influence because little was heard from her after that.

I will end with a cautionary tale to point out that the rest of the UFO community may not be quite as sold on MUFON’s supremacy in this field as we are led to believe. In 2010 my wife inherited a trip to Paris and while we were there I presented to Les Repas Ufologique. I told the story of my friend June Crain and immediately sold all my books. The Parisian Ufologists were very gracious and welcoming. The only disquieting moments occurred when they commented that they had not trusted MUFON for a long time. This has been a recurring theme in various places I have visited over the years; I could build trust personally with the audience and other researchers but there are always many people who don’t believe MUFON lives up to its avowed mission. The newest version of this arose on the Internet after the John Ventre scandal and the Kevin Randle interview; MUFON is now being called MUFONINO – MUFON In Name Only.

The value of MUFON has always been its reputation for integrity. But every time we endorse the Greer’s, the Maussan’s, the JZ Knight’s, and all the rest who will push anything for a buck, then MUFON has that much less integrity to lose. I know all the arguments; you must give the public what it wants to generate the most Symposium tickets sales. When you argue from a business perspective, the intangibles such as integrity, reputation or honor become sadly irrelevant.

It would be great if this is not true. I will always help anyone who asks me to assist their investigation whether they are in MUFON or not. It is with regret that I am resigning from MUFON, but I don’t see that I have an honorable alternative. We should all be on the same side and not divided into Elites and the Subservient. Thank you for reading this. I have tried to be as honest as I know how.

James E. Clarkson
Former MUFON State Director
Career UFO Researcher

While filming the 4th of July Fireworks Lilian accidentally captured a UFO on her video. Unfortunately it is in her Marco Polo and noone knows how to retrieve it from the program so it can be send in to be analyzed. Wish I was not a bird, bet I could figure it out…. Technology and humans….

The Target parking-lot is a busy place today, lots of trash everywhere. It has not rained in Olympia for 39 days, maybe that is why the pavement looks gray today. My Sweetheart is late. Every road in the County is under construction and hard to maneuver. That by itself should not interfere with her flight, maybe she stopped to look at something. I on the other hand am getting impatient, 4 hours human time is a long time in bird life and I am not interested in becoming an Old Crow before she gets here.

Lilian as crow avatar

I remain yours truly
Mr. MCKrekor

2 new shows were posted on Youtube in July

July 2017 Newsletter

R. McKrekor here, in a hurry

MR. McKrekor here, in a hurry, so I won’t be late for the report.

I am suppose to meet my Sweetheart, but it is so close to JULY 4th the American Independence Day and fireworks is already being shot off. It frightens her….. little scary Crow….. I guess I have to be patient and wait till she decides to take flight again and come my way. I am pretty sure about my role in her life and am confident she will seek me out after the hoopla stops in a few days. Yes, it will appear like an eternity for this bird, but I have learned to respect others space and show the proper respect to the “Bird Ladies”. I learned that from my human friend Lilian. Just recently she lost a friend of 30 years since she refused to overstep her prinzables of Neutrality in a dispute between her friend and a family member. It was painful, but she said it is important to stay true to ones self under any circumstance. Guess I test it out in my Bird Kingdom and I am almost sure it works here also. In my case it is a relationship issue and respecting my Ladies wishes.

Since I have this extra time on my claws I did not pay attention to the whereabouts of the Sun….. therefore the hurry….. if it gets dark I won’t be able to see what my friend is doing. The lights in her house confuse me. Instead of having lights like a normal person she changes them often, mostly the colors of the bulbs according to her moods. She said it helps her to keep track of herself, I don’t understand it ….. as long as she does. She reasons with herself in as much as she thinks colors can change her mood and mental well being. Color Therapy she calls it, along with smells. Oh yeah the smells. She calls that Aroma Therapy. Imagine being able to smell what mood your partner is in just by the aroma in the house…. Works for her, works for her.

The Tornado/Wind burst at her house, last month, practically destroyed the house straight across from her. It is under repair but oddly enough a Hawk Family has build their nest below a piece of a water gutter for the time being. Needless to say we BOTH watch it closely. Lilian, to keep track of the cat and I not to become a meal.

Ah, I made it! Lilian must have washed her hair and applied her new found treasure, a PLUMPER she calls it. She bought it off TV and the mailman brought it along with an envelope with several opened pieces of mail. The apology from the Post office stated that due to Graduation Time many pieces of mail resembling cards had been plundered looking for cash gifts for the Graduates. The Plumper works so well I can hardly see her wrinkles, after all she is just about 70 years old. The bottles says Amazon White Clay &Acacia collagen. It WORKS, the bald spot on her head gets smaller, or appears to get smaller each time she uses it. Don’t tell her I told you she wears wigs on her shows. Imagine the money that saves and they are sure pretty. She says her hair without the Plumper looks straggly… what ever that means. Lilian makes up words at the drop of the hat or pronounces something the way she hears it. Speaking of language. The German language is so riddled with English and Computer terms you could actually watch their News on ARD/DE and understand most of what is said and get an Idea how the world feel really about us here in America.

Braxit goes forward full force.

Puorto Rico votes to become the 51st state.

Florida flooded.

Dennis Rodman visited North Korea.

London had a deadly Apartment fire due to faulty materials used.

Fires are ravishing 11 Western American States so early in the year.

Shootings continue and it is sad when we hold our breath to see what race or nationally the shooter was.

Former FBI Head Jim Comney testified and the dragnet of offender widened.

The White House press has been restricted to AUDIO only and politics are continuing to deteriorate.

Demonstrations continue across America, Evergreen Collage in Olympia’s disturbances…riots.. made the intentional news and we are further apart from each other than ever.

Lilian’s friend Karen is reading several chapters of her ( Lilian) books to her each night.
Karen is in Chicago and they Skype. What they have found it that this is very therapeutic. It relaxes Karen who suffers of OCD and Lilian gets to refresh her memory as to what she has been writing about over the past 20+ years. Did you know the Newsletters started in 1996? What I have learned in turn is that no matter what is happening NOW it has happened before. Not to THIS extend, never the less some of the stories sounds like they are taken from the Nightly News TODAY.
https://psygeria.com/books-2/ for free download.

A bowl with fresh water…my birdbath fell over again thanks to a giant Labrador who thinks it is his water bowl…. Sun going down and a refreshing breeze. It was 102 degrees a couple of days ago, nice to relax at 70 for beast and men.

During my stay away from me period by my Sweetheart I have spend lots of time just sitting in the tree at Lilian’s. Occasionally flying to her window seal and “spying” on her. What I noticed is, now that she no longer stays on the move, she spends much time communicating with people on the internet. She marvels at the young people around the world who are willing to share themselves with her. The friends from Northern Territory in Australia share their lives and connected with some of her Native American friends. Both groups post on her Facebook page. The plight of the Aboriginal Australians the friends at Standing Rock and their victory to have the pipeline declared ILLIGAL again…. wonder if it does any good since it leaked already and the young friends from around the world. Lilian is so proud of some of them, instead creating havoc they are making the world a better place.

She skypes with her great nephew in Europe at times, he is 17 and wants to know about the people in the stars.

The 20-year old friend from Switzerland wants to know about GMO’s.

The 19-year old from Gambia inquires about the phone rates and wonders why some of the YouTube programs won’t play in his country.

Just so many young people eager to learn, seems they get less attention than the ones creating problems. Every generation experiences this….Think back.

Saâda Berdjouhs is one of her Algerian friends. Saâda teaches English in BATNA. She also travels all over to attend confrences and works very hard to teach he young students how to make a difference. Here is one of her posts.

Saâda Berdjouhs

In my country, I think that youth have some free life to do what they want and make some changes in life but without breaking the rules. That does not mean that we have everything. We need more things to be on top, and there are problems but we work to solve them. Algerian young people are very ambitious. They are capable of organising and creating whatever they want when an opportunity is given to them. However they face too many problems, such as lack of means and information. As a result of this we need to take care of them, inform them and allocate them in organisations in order to improve their competences in different fields. Many problems, no work, and no possibility to go outside Algeria and meet people from different countries. Real social development is needed. The majority of young people in Algeria are suffering from poverty. Social problems like unemployment, drugs, illegal immigration, and stereotypes are rampant. The Euro-Med Youth Platform is a tool to combat this. Young people in my country are very motivated. The average age is between 20 and 30. Young people are creative and sociable. Young people in Algeria are generally suffering because of many needs and problems on the social, economic and cultural levels. Unemployment, poverty, ignorance, health problems and especially the absence of information and orientation, make their life difficult, and as a result we see violence, vandalism, illegal immigration, insecurity, drug abuse, racism, xenophobia and so on. Young people in my country are faced with many problems. The education has a large responsibility in the disaster of young people in Algeria. The youngsters do not get good education and enough knowledge at school. This is caused by the lack of motivation in our schools, absence of cultural and sports activities, no technological means and all that can attract the kids to study. Most of them are excluded at schools without any qualifications. The few youth clubs that exist in our cities cannot satisfy the huge number of youths who come frequently to these houses. In a few words young people are not taken in charge at all. This situation caused many drunks and drug addicts in our society. Youth is so much marginalised. Young people cannot take any part in the decisions taken for them. In Algeria, youth represent the largest population in Algerian society and they are between 18 and 30 years old. Despite the efforts that government try to provide for them as job opportunities, facilities to start a small companies and also there are no tuition fees for education in all universities arround Algeria. Youth still complain from different problems in their daily life such as bureaucracy, unemployment, expensive life, the housing crisis and the high cost of dowries. Male youth here consider themselves as they have less chance in life because of the several obstacles that they face. If you meet any young man in Algeria and you ask him about his current situation he says immediately: I have been graduated from University, and then I had to do my military service which took two years of my life. Once I finished it I went to look for a job, but I found no job vacancy because they have taken by girls since they are not concerned by passing the military service. I wanted to settle down and marry but I couldn’t because I have no dependent house, I still live with my parents. I don’t have a job because if you look for a job you need previous experience and the experience itself needs working in a specific period. Such a philosophy! Also, marry a girl requires you to have a house, but government helps you in getting a house only if you are married. Now, I am working in a simple job which is completely out of my field of study in order to get some money for my cigarettes and coffee with my friends till my day comes in this country. Others think about immigrating toward Europe to find better life and they don’t care about facing unknown danger like death and marginalization overseas. When speaking about a typical Algerian young, he is talented, sociable, and try to not be influenced by different problems. Some of them created small groups of music like rap bands to transmit their concerns to others through rap songs with their own lyrics. Others are involved in sport clubs opened in different youth houses to practise football, swimming or combat sports. You also find many young prefers playing video games and spending long time challenging each other in their leisure time. It is very known that Algerians are very attached to their national elements like religion, language, geographical land. That does not mean they are racist, but also they pursue the current situation in other countries like Syria, Egypt, Tunisia … where Arab spring emerged three years ago through using different tools of social media such as TV, newspapers, and internet. May be you can notice this big love to Algeria during football matches of our national team, everybody hangs a flag in his flat to show the support and during the match you find the streets empty because everybody is busy by watching the match in the house in front of TV or in the streets and others prefer to be in the stadium even if the match is playing outside of Algeria. Recently, the culture of voluntary work among Algerian youth is widely spreaded, you find new emerged groups of volunteers who give importance to nature protection, helping the poor people and orphans and blood donation. They call themselves ”People for Goodness” composed of students and workers, their main tasks are cleaning streets and neighborhoods, planting trees, also hold sensitize days about different issues. During religious events like Ramadane and Eids, they collect aid and money to buy food and clothes for poor families. For cold winters in suburbs where there are no gas and sometimes electricity, ”People for Goodness” buy stoves and blankets and others needs in order to warm and light their houses. Volunteers do not work only at this level, also they start contributing positively in society through NGOs work by creating groups and associations in order to promote the mutual understanding and communication. They came from different backgrounds and gather themselves according to their common concerns and objectives. Their activities showed through events, conferences and workshops adressed to other youth.” – Saada Berdjouh

Christopher Allen Brewer has been friends with Lilian for many years. They seem to have a special bond in a strange way, past life perhaps. June was Gay Pride Month. There were fastivities all around the world…. no not really. Only in the countries in which is was allowed.

Here is what Christopher posted

Proud of yourself?

If I were to be put into a Nazi Concentration Camp 80 years ago, the triangular badge I would have been forced to wear would have been pink in color. As you know, the Jews wore a yellow one which was made into a 6-pointed star. These were badges of shame. I would have been considered a sexual deviant simply due to my attraction to my husband James. If I lived in Yemen, I would be stoned to death. Same thing in Mauritania and Saudi Arabia. In Iran I would be sentenced to death. Same thing for Nigeria, Qatar Afghanistan, Somalia and Sudan. I’ve also scratched Russia off my to-go list.

It may be pride month, but the world has little to be proud of when it comes to LGBT rights.
Were I living in America in the 50’s and 60’s, I would have been faced with an anti-gay legal system, which allowed others to openly discriminate on the basis of sexual orientation. Of course, I wouldn’t have had it as bad as the abuse others of this period suffered simply because they were black. Still, much violence was committed against gays and lesbians during this largely forgotten period where most attackers faced no legal consequences. Homosexual conversion therapy also began at this time, which included shock therapy and all manner of experimentation.

One evening, at the very end of the 60’s, a police raid occurred at the Stonewall Inn in Manhattan. Clubs which were suspected of catering to gays and lesbians were routinely raided back then. They had no place to go. That night, however, they had had enough. They fought back. Officers quickly lost control of the situation as the crowd grew and held their own. Protests were staged in the days and nights that followed. Residents of Greenwich Village organized activist groups and concentrated efforts on establishing places for gays and lesbians to be open about their sexual orientation without fear of being arrested.

By the next year in Chicago, the first official pride parade marched to continue the resistance that began at Stonewall. Many saw this as their liberation day and began using the pink triangles to raise awareness of the intolerance, bigotry and religious persecution they faced.

Eight years later, and five years after I was born, an artist named Gilbert Baker created a rainbow flag to symbolize the diversity of the gay community. Thirteen years after that, when I came out during my senior year of high school in 1991, there were still only a smattering of movies and made-for-TV specials depicting our struggle. There was no Logo or Will & Grace. There was one gay bookstore I had to take a bus downtown to get to, and I was often harassed getting there or leaving from there.

When I came out, my mother assured me that I would receive help. She would thereafter hang up on any guys who called for me, instructing my sister to do the same. I would have to sneak out my window to meet my friend parked down the street. There was one all-ages club we could go to. And thanks to Amendment 2, if I ever met a potential husband, I wouldn’t be allowed to legally marry him.

But by 2004, I met him. Two years later, we went ahead and married anyway. Finally, in 2014, the world caught up with us and by 2015 our union was legally recognized. There was still some resistance, some people still attempting to impose their religious views on us, convinced we had some gay agenda, but we continue to resist. My only agenda, our only agenda, were the same freedoms available to anyone else in our country.

When I was a kid, I thought that in a year like 2017, we would have flying cars and colonies on other planets for sure. My dad often had Star Trek playing in the background during this period and I would hear about “infinite diversity in infinite combinations”. Surely by the millennium, acceptance of such diversity would be commonplace. I always had an attraction to men but was forced to keep it hidden. I never knew why I was the way I was, but I stayed a good little Christian boy, going to Sunday school, bible camp and youth groups, even bible studies to earn my own bible, even though this book allegedly stated that my kind were an abomination in the eyes of the Lord.

The world did move forward, mostly technologically, but I still didn’t get the hover cars and teleportation devices I thought I’d have. What’s more, people were still squabbling about who was allowed to sleep with who. Some people moved forward. Some people moved backward. I’ve worn pink triangle and rainbow accessories. I have been to several parades and protests. Although I don’t believe those symbols completely define me, I am grateful for the progression I have witnessed in our country.

Some people believe homosexuality is caused by some cord connecting the hemispheres of the brain. Some believe it’s caused by a domineering mother and absent father. Some believe the mother passes it down to her child when the family has grown too large. Some who believe that we have reincarnated through several lifetimes as both male and female will sometimes reincarnate into bodies where we embrace both spirits. Every ancient culture has a word for homosexuality and for the most part they were valued just as much as anyone else. Homosexual behavior is found throughout nature. And yet “gay” is still used to describe something in a derogatory manner.

Regardless, I stopped caring about the cause a long time ago. Homosexuality is the least interesting thing about me. I could care less if a witch passed a wand over me in my sleep. I am someone who chooses to embrace mystery. And I stopped caring what others thought a long time ago, knowing that if I wanted to live a rich, authentic life, I had to live in a genuine manner. When my father was in Vietnam, he had a gay bunkmate. A gay soldier who fought for his country and died believing he would only ever hold value as a soldier. I don’t think of myself as having less value than others. I don’t consider myself a minority. I don’t live a life of limitation. My father never cared. He wasn’t indifferent, he just understood.

As my father was dying of cancer last year, my husband and I drove an hour and a half to see him every weekend. My husband worked a night shift and was supposed to be sleeping during the day, but always went without sleep so he could spend time with my father. He also called him “dad”. There were many times when my dad did not want us to leave. He was always happy to see us, always expected us, always visited with us. Up until the end, he waited for us and interacted with us and saluted us when he could no longer speak. He loved us no matter what. He truly understood, “infinite diversity in infinite combinations”.

So it’s pride month. Every June, during the same period when the Stonewall Riots occurred. My husband and I never went out to clubs or bars. We were involved in the gay community as much as we could be when we first met. Now, during pride month, we just do our own thing. We might watch MILK or Longtime Companion or Priscilla or And The Band Played On. We might not give a damn if we’re seen holding hands in public. I work out and James was a bodybuilder with a black belt when I met him. We can hold our own.

People complain about parades and trivialize rainbow symbols because they do not comprehend the blood, sweat and tears it took the gay community to get where it is. Those who complain forget that the freedoms they have, they always had, able to marry and display public affection without fear of harassment. It seems utterly ridiculous that James and I could still be hung or decapitated if caught displaying public affection in certain countries. It seems crazy that people we’ve never met, and some who we have, would think us an abomination.

For us, homosexuality was not a choice or something someone could seduce upon us. It’s simply what and who we are. In our time we have seen the gruesome deaths of people like Matt Sheppard and Brandon Teena, people who weren’t even displaying pink triangles or rainbow flags when they were killed. As such, we never trivialize those symbols, because a lot of people had to die so that they could come about. We see the marches and reflect on the photos we’ve seen from the Stonewall Riots. We didn’t know these people, but they made us cry to see how they struggled and fought and died simply for the freedom to be able to love who they wanted.

Christopher Allen Brewer

This is a very special time in history and the next time you see a rainbow flag, pink triangle or pride parade going by, remember that you know someone involved in this march against oppression, someone who still has to fight. And be grateful for your freedoms.

Christopher Allen Brewer, June, 2017

Lilian was honored to have been allowed to air the ceremony of their wedding on her show in 2006.

On the second Sunday in June Lilian’s alarms went off for quiet a while. She finally opened the door and greeted two men and a boy. They were friends from Ft. Defiance AZ. They came in and they said they came to check on her since it had been such a long time since she had visited. They said they brought their new son to meet her and pointed to a Cradle Board which hangs on her book case. They told the boy it was the same cradle-board which carried his mother. They had send it home with Lilian when her Grandson Sirius was born 20 years earlier. Until that time it held 6 Generations if the Roanhorse Family. The excitement of her Navajo Visitors woke her up and she offered to fix food for the travelers. They said they were unable to stay because they had to be at work on Tuesday. They just wanted to come and check on her. They stayed 20 minutes, gave her a hug and left. This is the second time they did that only the time before they stayed 2 hours and had time for dinner.

According to Google map:

There are 1,056.30 miles from Fort Defiance to Olympia in northwest direction and 1,527.14 miles (2,457.69 kilometers) by car, following the I-40 route.
Fort Defiance and Olympia are 21 hours 34 mins far apart, if you drive non-stop.
This is the fastest route from Fort Defiance, AZ to Olympia, WA. The halfway point is Austin, NV.
Please note the time difference between Fort Defiance, AZ and Olympia, WA is 1 hour.
Gas Cost according to Google calulation is $ 101-197 ONE WAY!

Guess I have gossiped enough, time to take my nap and dream about my Sweetheart. The Humming Birds are sharing my water, they are bragging how well they are liked because of their pretty appearence and always welcome everywhere, This may be true. Case and point.

Several times a month Lilian goes to a local smoke-shop to buy her goods. She has done so for 5 years. The owner is pleasant and courious. The Lady on the other hand is ALWAYS rude with an superior attitude. In front of the place sit street musicians almost always and there is a sign on the door: NO PUBLIC BATHROOMS.

Each time Lilian encounters the lady she decides never to go there again, however with her meager budget she thinks about saving $10 because the same product is so much cheaper at this establishment. Of course she forgets about it till the next time she goes there and gets the same treatment. The other day while on her way to film her show at TV Media she stopped in the little store. She was dressed for the show, wore makeup and one of those pretty wigs I was talking about. The lady was there and fell all over herself waiting on Lilian, even though she was the same person. The bill was $10.84. She gave the lady a ten dollar bill and fumbled for her coin purse for the 84 cent. The Lady insisted, the 10 was fine and to keep the change. Lilian was startled, thanked the Lady and held her tongue. Those of you who know her know what she mumbled on her way out and that she DID.

Like they say: Love and Light

Lilian as crow avatar

Cross country trip to visit friends, including Canyon DeChelle

Christopher Allen Brewer/The SpiritChasers